Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

I'm really looking forward to meeting up with everyone on Saturday. It will be such a pleasure. I am feeling really happy today and will be being active, eating slowly and drinking water. I am really enjoying my new job and I suppose being happy it's easy to put things into perspective and be relaxed. I know I won't be like this all the time though but am enjoying the moment. Life continues to be very busy and I this is one of the few times I have tto reflect. I was reminded by Pete about the importance of breathing. it seems such an obvious thing but I am concious that when stressed by breathing is shallow and measured breathing does help. Looking forward to today and wish the best for everyone! Sue would love to meet up and will be at starbucks, need to make sure exactly where!

I have just worked through a wobble and responded positively by booking my vitality ticket. I am off sick today having had a blood test which seems to have triggered some really bad feelings. I got home and discovered my son had not gone to college, he gave me a rather implausible story so I rang to find out he had an assignment today and had not turned up. This has been a pattern and I fear the college has given up as there is only so much they can do. My son is nearlly 18 so I suppose they have a point but I felt really distressed, especially as I wasn't a 100% anyway. I vented and then helped him to a degree, we'll finish the afternoon as I sent him back to college, where I hope he's gone. I am so worried about him but at least he has a home and family who care about him. I know some kids are not so lucky. the duck was suggesting all sorts of anarchic responses but I decided to book my ticket. Thanks Pete for resending the party details so I'm now geared to meeting up on Saturday. It will be great to put faces to names! Am still feeling a bit off so will stop now but really needed my Pete fix as I'd missed this am because of my test. anyway hope peiple are having a better day than me today! even with my positive gesture!!!!

I had a lovely weekend spent largely with friends and family. I als went that extra mile in more ways than one in that i went down the motorway. I used to rely on my ex to drive the distances. to be honest motoways and going to places across London that i don't know , scare me. I didn't mean to go on the motorway but my friend has moved to St Albans and I was visiting. I'd been before , once but the Satnav took me a different route. I survived! I also saw my friend who i haven't seen since Xmas . Pete spoke today about making time for friends and family and so take your mind off obsessing with weight. I did this by default this weekend. On Friday I went out with my old team. It was myleaving meal, a little late as I left on 14.12 but had a truly fantastic time. When i actually left they gave a lovely presnet and a bottle of champagne which i have said I'll share with them and cook them a meal once my ex finally leaves. They are such lovely people! I will use Pete's dinner party menus. I'm going to book my Vitality ticket today. The friend who was tentatively coming is now not as she will be seeing her brother but I'm looking forward to meeting people on Saturday. I have not got the evening details as I accidentlally deleted the link. Either can Pete or someone from his office please send it to me visa my email or i hope to meet up with people oin the day. i'm not on Facebook but if peole are meeting at a certain place /time I'd appreciate it if I could be included, Failing that possibly catching up at Pete's talk?
Sun shining, feeling positive. hope everyone else has a great day

today is glorious, the sun is shining, i've just re listened to day 5 and the duck . whilst it was playing I was questionning my motivation, Stress has caused me to fall back on old diffusing tactics which probably have not been beneficial in the long run. Things are moving ahead in my divorce and I am tempted to buy new things for a new start. I know however, I will have a lot less money so need to be circumspect. In my head I start anew once my ex has left but the reality is a) it can't wait and b) I have been changing. Sometimes because something appears to be common sense, i don't value it orthe fact I have made a positive choice.
I have been bloggin less due to being really busy on a positive way but realise having the motivational fix every morning is also my trigger to blogg. I haven't seen others blogs either , which always puts things into perspective for me. I hope everyone has a wonderful day and enjoys the sunshine!

Pete always acknowledges that you overeat/drink because of triggers other than hunger and thirst and emotional eating is a significant response to unmet need. I am in a new relationship which was developing nicely , gradually and pleasantly but recently he is becoming very important and I am not coping. This will sound ridiculous but I couldn't sleep, ended up waking at 5.40 and weighing myself! How ludicrous is that! I know it has a direct bearing oin the relationship, as to use Mandie's phrase, I was churning about things. I don't think I am having a relapse as such but am just aware I am sidestepping what I need to do , rather than addrsesing the issue. I suppose I ned to confront my feelings and be honest... sometimes this is hard and it's easier to eat/drink!

I have decided to revisit the 21 day programme more for the motivation and the focus rahter thanthe sense of not beiing able to move on that I had last time I redid the programme. My work colleagues have noticed I appear happier and slimmer which I credit to Pete, the programme and my fellow bloggers. i will also give myself some credit as well! I realise that things are dynamic and my feelings will change but believe I have established a pretty good foundation. Thanks Ash re the mobile suggstion. It really will be good to meet up. i always enjoy the Vitality show and buy every magazine going for the freebies, such a consumer. anyway look forward to reading the bloggs and enjoying the ever present support.
hope everyone has a brilliant day.

i think i'm going t go back to the 21 day programme, not that i need it particulally but i miss the morning motivational. Have still not booked my Vitality ticket and seem to have lost details of the evening meet up so would appreciate the link again.. I usually go with friends either Friday or Sunday but they didn't fancy Saturday so if anyone would like to meet up during the day , it would be good?
I'm having problems with my adolescant and with great difficulty resisted hitting the carbohydrates. i then felt really ashamed at how I'd dealt with the situation on an emotional level so spent the night tossing and turning. Life is hard but generally satisfying. I so crave the sun, it makes such a difference, everything seems so much more achievable.

I have not blogged for the last few days, partly because of time and partly because i couldn't get on the computer because my soon to be ex is flat hunting. To be honest it's really quite exciting. I have had some wobbles, amazingly these are chocolate ones and as mentioned, iIactually don't have a sweet tooth. i think there is also a level of trepidation in that my relationship with my "chap" is moving forwards as well. I am presesnting as very measured and reflective but inside I'm really nervous so I think I'm going to have to be a little more open otherwise how am I ever going to develop the trust I want. We are out tonght... thai food... lovely ! so will state my case I think.
I have listened to Pete and Stage 4 at last. I think it is the right stage for me , knowing I can go back to stage 3 for refreshment when I need. Pete has a wonderful way of crystalising all the doubts and presenting them in a way that appears to be both realistic and achievable. Nest stage here I come!
I think I'm facing loads of new thngs and definately have a positive outlook but it is scary and my previous defences have been food and the bottle. They are still there but my insight has grown and I am becoming less dependant

I think i was a bit gushy yesterday, a Gwyneth Paltrow moment! however I still feel really positive and priveledged to have the support of my fellow bloggers. i think i'm going to go on to Step 4 tomorrow, I have been looking at the areas I need to work on:
Be gentle, I still have the tendancy for self flagellation but i am now very aware of it!
Be paitent... I still want it all yesterday but it aint going to happen
Portion control... work in progrss
Give credit.. improving
Duck.. ongoing
Esat when hungry, some progress but room for improvement
goals; Improvements
Stimulants MUST TRY HARDER!!!
However, definately progress and it will not be a failure to review thee 21 day programme. Out with "chap2 and his dog for long walk followed bu nice lunch. I know will make the healthy choices!
Have a really good day eveyone!!

I am like a long playing record and definately showing my age but thank you so much to everyone for their thoughtfulness and consideration. I was definately a bit tearful this morning. You are all such a great group of friends as that is how I now see people even though we haven't yet met. I repeat I'm so looking forward to 20 th March. I haven't got my ticket yet but will do so. My friends who usually come with me are giving it a miss this year. I don't know if I mentioned that it was the day before I was due to go to the Vitality Show that my marriage ended. I look back now and realised that it was a really good decision but didn't appear so at the time. I continue to wobble, I continue to make wrong choices , the duck keeps quacking but I am not the same person who stated this journey and feel I have made some very positive moves.
Thank you to everyone who continues to support me in this process, One step forward but these are becoming more frequent!

I become repetitative but once again thanks for the support i received yesterday, it was an interesting day with lots of reflection and some lapses... having listened to Pete today. I have now returned to much more direct work and realise it will no longer beout there as it was with my previous job but in my face. I know I will have support from work and my friends but yesterday was a bit of a body blow so to speak and I am going to need to find coping strategies.
I am out with some really good friends tonight, we are going to Pizza Expres but i'll have the Warm Salad which is lovely fresh and "healthy" . Having a day off today so going to chill a bit. The sun is shining which makes such a difference, weather yesterday so foul and reflected my mood... ah snow flakes???? Anyway, tools today, activity plus! Have good days.

Was so busy yesterday morning that I missed my session. Had the most awful day yesterday I heard soome terrible news which will have a huge impact on my life. It is work related and I always knew my new job would be emotionally challenging and that i faced a steep learning curve. I feel so desperatly sad and colourless with such a sense of tragic waste. I work in the field of safeguarding childrren to give context. I know i will respond appropriately and professionally but I feel as though there is a great heavy weight on my chest. I didn't really taste my breakfast and ate for sustenance rather than anything else. I am being short with everyone so need to just be calm abnd breathe.. Life!

Pete talks such sense! I know I've done the 21 days twice before but apart from my glitch, i find it really motivational,. today outcomes... Ear slowly, natural foods water today... yes I know it's my comfort zone but i realise at this tme I need to be kind to myself. This is a bit like SMART goals which i work with, Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Realistic and Timebound. I really want to focus on the small achievable steps and not be too hard on myself if I wobble. I'm training today because I have to rather than want to. I haven't trained since I started my new job but it's a bit like riding a bicycle.. you don't forget how. Have good days everyone and hope you are able to achieve your outcomes!!

Such a wonderful day yesterday! I had a lovely present, Valentine card and flowers. i felt so cherished, Poppy, the dog is a sweetie and we walked for miles. apparently she passed out when she got home with "Chap". I ate very slowly over lunch and felt full without eating all the divine raost potatoes. Generally a wonderful day but now i need to just keep on track and look to the future. Will have a great day today and hope everyone else does too!

Funny day yesterday, felt really positive in the morning and as mentioned really appreciated the on line support. By the evening I began to slump. Had lovely call from my chap but I don't really understand what was going on. Drank wine with my ex but it had a depressing effect and I ended up feeling really low????
I didn't turn to food but obviously it was the wine, the need for something in the mouth!!!I woke up at 5.30a.m. and just thought about what I'm learning about myself, how I cope with challenge and how I still want everything yesterday, even if it's dealing with my grief! I'm pretty sure this is what it's about. Sometimes as was said yesterday you have to live in the moment , even if itt isn't a good one.
Thanks for your response Mandie, my ex hushband was married before and I got on quite well with his ex wife, We even went on holiday together when our children were young and I know that all this will pass and the possibility of me coming out better at the end is high.
I weakened and weighed myself, I think it was a sort of punishment to myself for being maudlin and self pitying... I was expecting to have put on weight but actually have lost half a lb!!
I've just listened to Pete and his noting how important it is to be gentle with yourself... another of my weak suits but I'm trying. I also was thinking why I don't do what he suggests e.g the breathing techniques when exercising. I think I just forget and need to have the message reinforced. sorry this is a bit of a ramble . Am going to meet the dog today and go for a lovely long walk and talk so the day bodes well. I generally am feeling more positive. I find my mood lifts as I type and I know I'll enjoy reading other peoples blogs so thanks everyone and hope you all have good days.