Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

The past couple of days have slipped into a downward spiral both emotion and eating wise.
After resisting a choc cake and being inspired by the weightloss athlete on Mon I caved in last night (with some encouragment) and we shared it - to be honest it was the worst cake I've ever had, really tasted stale but I still ate it!!!! There was bedlam going on in my head with duck shouting and the healthy angel saying it tasted disgusting and what was I doing? Boy am I a rotten athlete, definately in the yo-yo category.
Just seem to have hit some sort of a brick wall. Can't be bothered to make anything healthy just eating junk. Pre-pctv this would have been the point at which I would have given up, but I know now what I need to do to get my auto-pilot to recorrect my course.
I have not listened to the R&T track for far too long - so will listen to it as soon as I've changed my days and sent this off
I have seen the nurse and am waiting for my gym induction, which has been an excuse not to do anything till then, this is my big downfall at the mo - not exercising - just seem so tired and it seems to be a major planning effort to fit it in - but I feel more like I can pysically do it now that I have lost a good deal of weight so will be out tonight with friend for a 30 min walk - and will report back that I have done it!
Have slipped out of the habit of eating only when hungry and just eating "because it's there" So will go back to the hunger score - it was making a big difference when I used it.
I think I am still eating slowly although I find the putting the knife and fork down hard to do - just spend the time playing with them and the food, that feels more natural, so will make a particular point of putting them down.
Sugar and fat have crept back on the scene as we now have lots of lovely fresh full cream goats milk and I've been making semolina, rice pud, custard etc. also been drinking milky coffee. The answer to some of this has come because I need to put my goat on antibiotics (poor thing she has an infection from the terrible kidding she had) for 14 days so will not be able to use the milk!
On the plus side still drinking the peppermint and rooibos tea, not much but at least something.

So Plan for the rest of today
Go now and drink a glass of water and clean my teeth to draw the line
Listen to the R&T track to gain some focus again
Am eating out tonight with client so will choose salad and have water to drink
Will eat slowly, putting down my knife and fork between bites
Will do a 30min walk with client this evening
Finish at 10pm so home and in bed before 11pm! Desperately need a good sleep!
Righto off to go! I know I should reply to the blogs but I so often do that and then run out of time to listen to the video or R&T track that I am going to be selfish and just get my head right tonight.

Although I haven't had time to write up my journal, have had a good few days but today has been a bit of a slippy one, Back at work and not very organised - loads to do and little time so haven't planned over the last 48 hours and I felt it today! Started the day not feeling hungry and making a nut butter sandwich with wholemeal bread to take with me and have when I was hungry, but the smell got the better of me and I had it before I left home, consequently was ravenous by lunchtime, had 2 wholewheat rolls with hoummus and cherry tomatoes, apple and satsuma, then walked all round town and back to some pasta which was made for me (with what must have been a ton of cheese in!) only had a spoonful to be polite. By the time I got home 7.30 and finished milking once again starving and lost the plot turning what should have been a healthy scampi meat and prawn stir fry into a no veg and cheesy sauce far too rich nightmare and then had a hunk of seedy bread to go with it! I knew what I was doing but just didn't have the energy to do differently, that's a huge fat excuse just didn't feel like doing differently, also had to make a different supper for H so just plain couldn't be bothered! Shame on me. But there is a line now drawn, the remainder is going in the bin as soon as I get up from here and I am staying up to get my thoughts in order and work out some sort of plan for the next few days, listen to the new old R&T track properly (tried to listen earlier and was interupted - what I heard sounded like it was going to be great, personally love the idea of firing my metab. up! and also listen to the other track before I go to bed.
So outcomes for tomorrow:
Drink 2l water - have been short today and am now really parched
Eat slowly - becomming a real part of my life now
Eat natural foods giving wheat & bread a break today and no sugar
Listen to the R&T tracks
Walk 30 min and cycle 30min
Going out for Chinese Dumplings in the evening - plan a strategy to not do too much damage to weight loss and positivity, want to wake up on Mon and feel good - how? - Drink lots through the day, eat mainly fruit and veg, have a salad lunch, have a healthy snack before I go so I'm not too hungry, ask for water to drink while I'm there and with the meal. Nothing to eat after and get a good sleep.

Have had to pause the "days" as I've not been able to the spend the time on them. On Tuesday we had the funeral of our dear friend and it was a day to remember, she had "learning difficulties" and drew people not only to her but to each other as well, she was indeed a "lesson in friendship" so it was a wonderful marking of her life and ended with a "party" for all her many friends. Different but exactly what she would have loved to have happened. Needless to say there was lots of food on the buffet which I would previously have tucked into, but managed to stay off the pastries and sausage rolls etc and just have a couple of brown butties (healthiest choice available) and when buttering some delicious looking bara brith and was everso tempted managed to stop and think (the tenth tool I've had to discipline myself to use!) and just remember how horrid I'd feel when I'd had it, that one piece would only lead to another and to think how good I'd be feeling after that I'd resisted it and so stopped myself, this sugar addiction really has got bit teetjh and I know for me it has to be nothing or else it would be all!
Yesterday was out for dinner didn't feel tempted at all by pud but had a strawberry off my friend's choc fudge cake plate and it had on it a tiny bit of choc sauce, I felt like all the devils from sugar hell had leapt out to drag me in!! I just craved sugar for the rest of the night, maybe it was all in my mind but it really was bad, managed to resist mainly I think because it almost frightened me how strong the urge was but also because I didn't want to lose ground or to "let the side down" so kept thinking how good I'd feel if I resisted. Well the next moring I did feel good so I weighed myself and found another 2lb winging its way to oblivion and the 15 stone barrier broken! So a total of 22lb gone since I started the programme. Dead chuffed!
Have not managed to drink the 2l for the last 2 days, circumstances and being in places where the inevitable result could not easily be sorted! Have been feeling very dry as a result and today have made up for it!!
Otherwise found it suprisingly easy to stick to the other tools, they really seem to be becomming a part of life. A magic part of life! Am so enjoying the feeling of being in control of my eating and also of my life in general, I can't even describe all the changes taking place but they are making me a so much happier person with far more enthusiasm for life.
Have become so much more comfortable that I have started on the exercise tools!!!! and have been cycling in our local hilly country park, and today hubbie said "come on we can fit a ride in, let's keep it going and as far as we can make it a daily practice"!!!!!!!!! That was really music to my ears bless his heart as we have a fair age difference and it's sometimes felt a bit difficult to say right-o I'm off for my exercise sesh! But he now wants to lose weight as well - Rome wasn't built in a day - but we're now both moving in the right direction together even if slowly at first. I just can't thank everyone enough for all these changes in my life, Pete and team and all the lovely bloggers who don't even realise how much your support has influenced me.
So its on with the video programme now, have missed you all and hope to catch up now on all your news via reading the blogs. We had an expression in South Africa for when we really wanted to get stuff done and it's "Go for the gap chinas (friends)!!

Am about to flop into bed, was up all night with my goatee-nearly-mamma. She laboured through the night and things were not progressing so I called the vet this morning, he came out and tried valiently to deliver her but failed she hardly made a sound while it was going on, she was really shocked, as goats don't take caesarians at all well he thought we should put her down! I just burst into tears and he said there was one other option we could try - to dismember the babies, it was the only way to save mamma so that is what we did, he still struggled to deliver them a boy and a girl, they were like their mamma big boned and they were tangled up together. Poor mamma is shattered and bruised and I don't yet know if she will survive, we don't know what internal damage there may be. Have made her as comfortable as possible and left her to sleep it off if she can. Sorry maybe too much detail but I just feel so drained and sad and angry that the birthing process has to be so hard, I just can't stop crying. The only positive thing is that I haven't turned to food at all, previously I would have been into it all night, but just can't face anything! Hubbie has gone out now so am going to bed now, will read blogs later - to everyone else who's having a hard time - hang in there, things must get better and to all those celebrating victories over food - congratulations and jubilation , you'll want the world to know you're happy as can be (hey someone just stole that line and used it a few years ago in a song!) Keep Going everyone, we can do it!!!

Am sitting up with my expectant mamma goat - she is in labour and bless her very uncomfortable so a quick one tonight.
Felt really good this morning woke up feeling great and decided today was weigh day (after the wobbling at the end of C1 well whoop whoop I was overjoyed at the result - lost another 7lb!!! that's 20lb so far! Am so chuffed and measured myself and had lost another 2" from my waist as well as 2" from my hips, down 5" now from my waist (still plenty more to go but chipping away at it!) Well that was a real motivator!
Need to get back to the goatshed now I've had a quick warm, may not be able to do much blogging for a couple of days but am continuing "doing the do". Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Outcomes for tomorrow:
Eat slowly, watch portion size
Think before I eat
water
Eat only when hungry
be as active as pos.

This morning I thought that I'd got up in the wrong house - in the fridge were half a pack of Pastrami and a tuna steak which I'd cooked yesterday - may not sound strange but just 4 short weeks ago they would never have survived the evening fridge raid! So out of what would have been two snacks then, I have made 4 meals! "YES" (with a clenched fist raisted!)
Other YES's today have been that I achieved all my outcomes for today: I went out for a 30 min hard walk up a steep hill, and booked an appt to see nurse re gym membership! Also managed the water easily - I tend to lose track of how much I've had but have a string of chillies hanging up over my kitchen window so played abacus with them and moved one along the string as I had my glasses of water! Thought before I ate and ate slowly. Although I got cake out to give to the vicar and visitors I have not had a piece at all, I keep saying to myself I don't do cake and sweets - I choose not to!
Hubbie went out so I decided to do the R & T track and got sidetracked to the podcasts so have done a huge pile of ironing while listening - boy are they inspirational! Did try to leave a comment on the Lucy one but it wouldn't accept it! It really was so interesting and gave me a whole new perspective on eating natural foods, thought I did well in that I always cook my own from scratch, make bacon and bread etc but that opened my eyes even wider, am going to try some different stuff - tend just to eat bread and potatoes with the occasional pasta as starches and realise I also tend to be very "samey" in meals, So will break out of the mold and go shopping tomorrow. Another thing I learned is that the cheapie fish oil is not good at all - I use it for my knee and back and will get some good pure stuff! Learned loads else too, not to heat olive oil, need to keep the stress levels under control and really get to grips with resistance exercise to be able to change my shape. Could go on and on, made some notes while I was listening really was time well spent! Thanks for them.

Planned outcomes for tomorrow:
Drink 2l
Eat slowly
Go shopping and look for different and natural foods, whole foods
Stop and think before eating, make better use of the hunger scale
Eat only when hungry
No sugar
Walk 30 mins
Be as active as possible.
Remember the YES!

And possibly be a goaty gran by tomorrow (fingers crossed) must go and check the big mamma now and see if I need to sit up with her tonight (hope she waits till the daytime tomorrow!) and pleeeease no vets this time!
Take care all and if I do have to stay up will be able to catch up on your blogs - lots of interesting looking comments up at the mo on this screen!

A good day again, on a roll! Achieved outcomes bar making the appt with the nurse which I forgot (woopsie), feeling good though.
May seem daft but a major step forward - I used a small amount of fruit yoghurt from a little pot and put the rest away to use later in another recipe!!! Never been done before in the history of my eating! Woweeee progress is a good feeling.
Could have wobbled tonight as I had a 10 pistachio nuts then 10 more and could have walloped the lot but managed to close the packet and visualise myself turning as green as the nuts!
Had to go in to the office this afternoon. Walked fast around the city then up the stairs at the office for my appraisal which went well and with my new found positivity and self confidence I proposed that instead of buying in the services of an NVQ assessor they allow me to train then offer the service "in-house" which would enhance the company and save them money, plus we would have better control over standards (and I'd be able to use my years of experience and be one step closer to the tutor post that I would ultimately love) to my suprise this was met with an enthusiastic sounds good, we'll look into it!!! Also was offered the staff appraisals and new client visits that I used to do, the manager is now the ex-manager so things are turning round for me on the work front as well! And tomorrow is Day 4 give yourself some credit so thought I'd share my excitement.
Day 4 Video
Must admit it feels very strange and "naughty" to be saying how well I feel I'm doing but I need to acknowledge it to myself.
"one of the most effective ways of overcoming obstacles is to give ourselves some credit" must remember that for when I'm struggling because that time will come.
"move" to feel better, endorphins and seatonin
Need to get off my backside and get out there - didn't make the appt to see the nurse must do so tomorrow
listen to the R & T track



Outcomes for tomorrow:
Continue practising eating slowly including portion control
Eat only when hungry and after STOPPING and thinking about the choices I am making
Drink 2L water
No sugar
natural foods
be as active as possible - FIT IN A 30 MIN WALK - MINIMUM!!
book appt with nurse.

O dear just got half way through and lost it again - no not the plot but my entry!! So here goes again.
Been a good day for me today, achieved all my outcomes bar the walking 30min one, not going to beat myself up though as it really has been a busy day, helping to arrange a friend's funeral, its amazing how much there is to do at a time like this. Also have re-discovered a talent for and enjoyment of organising events and making good things happen for people, I will pull out all the stops to get it done right!
Really pleased with myself that I managed to stop and think each time before I ate and make considered choices which I really enjoyed, I thought I was doing well at the eating slowly last cycle but somehow seem to have really got into it in a new way, really been getting so much more enjoyment and "taste satisfaction" from what I've eaten,
I do feel like its all beginning tocoming together - and that I'm becomming a nicer person. I think as I have been "cutting myself some slack", recognising my achievements and being more positive and encouraging to myself that I have been affording others the same, which makes me a nicer person to be around, which makes me feel better about myself which makes me kinder to others ..... its a real win-win positive spiral and I like it very much! I can only say wowee and this is only the beginning there's so much more to learn, can only say a huge Thank You to Pete and team for making all this possible!

Day 3 Video
doing simple things and learning to do them well - yes that's what I need to do and what I feel is happening with tool 1 to my great joy.
well withing our own capabilities - guilty, I need to step up and get out of the comfort zone as far as exercise goes particularly.
being patient with myself - have found it really pays off to build that good foundation, also enjoying being able to work at my own pace instead of flogging myself to "keep up", being able to take the time to work through things methodically and carefully, that's also something I'm discovering - always felt that I was a real scatterbrain, but now wonder if it is because I try to be all things to all people and feel responsible for their reactions. I am really enjoying working through the programme and the more methodical I am the better the results are.
As your "coachee" Pete I just want to say that short change doesn't come into it - this is the best value for money ever and I will never be able to thank you enough!

Outcomes for tomorrow D3:
Continue to eat slowly watching portion size
Continue to eat only when hungry and after stopping and thinking
Continue with 2l of water - using hot water worked well as the weather was colder today
Be as active as I can - take any opportunity to walk, dance, move in any way

Well that's my dissertation! Looking forward to tomorrow - this is getting more and more exciting! Off to read some blogs now then its boabs time. Take care all and enjoy tomorrow!

Reviewing Day 1
Overall a good day. Busy morning, did the R & T track while sitting in my car in the sunshine (no it wasn't moving, I was parked up!)
Because of meetings today I haven't had the full 2 l of water but am happy that it was just circumstances as it has become quite part of my usual day now. Got up early but so did hubbie so couldn't do my walk this morning, did a trot round town later to make up for that.
Wasn't hungry so didn't eat till 2pm then had a little chat with myself and decided that I wanted a small baked pot with tuna and lf cream cheese and salad, ate slowly and thoroughly enjoyed it and really pleased that I'd remembered to stop and think before I ate.
This evening I had the conversation with me again and came up with a wholemeal sandwich with cold roast pork, chopped onion and a bit of applesauce. Again really enjoyed my choice and ate slowly.
Went out to choir practice and in the spirit of my new promise to recognise my successes was chuffed that my timing seemed much better, had a banana when I got in, now feel quite satisfied and happy with the day and I LIKE this feeling!

I find the duck squarking that one day doesn't make a summer - he's got his metaphors mixed - and I'm about to put him back beside the bath where he belongs, I CAN I WILL eat only when hungry, it's strange how much I feel at sea just thinking about this but it was a great start today.

Thoughts from Day 2 video
"and because they really want to do it that no matter how many times they fall down they just get back up" yeah man! I did it as a baby I can do it again now, I did it at the end of last cycle and will keep doing it till I get it right I just won't give up till I get there!
Yes, I do think it's possible for me to lose weight and gain control over my eating, given time and patience with myself. I like the idea of going through the cycle again it's like another chance to improve, another chance to prove to myself that I can do it.
I love the analogy of the plane flying I have found it really helpful to focus on the destination as the end point and not get too fretted up about the time it will take or that I may see some different scenery on the route.

Outcomes for tomorrow:
Get up early will set the alarm for 6.30 - have a glass of cold water then get out for that 30 min walk b4 being distracted
Drink 2l of water throughout the day
Only eat when I am hungry
Remember to stop and think before I eat and choose only what will make me feel good and healthy
Eat slowly and extract maximum enjoyment
Do the R & T track at least once in the day
Give myself credit for any successes through the day.

Sounds like its going to be a great day, ooo I can't wait!
Taking this time to really think through and plan has really been motivating, I think I owe it to myself to do this regularly, after all everyone else I come in contact with and support can only benefit by my being more positive, fitter and healthier.

Take care everyone, sleep tight and have a grrrrrreat day tomorrow.

For this cycle I will go through the video the night before, set my outcomes for the next day and so be ready to get cracking the next morning - kind of like packing my bag each night for the journey ahead.
So reviewing Day 1
One day at a time and, in light of Pete's comment in today's video, I'll add to that one eating tool at a time, perhaps tried to do too many last cycle felt that I blew up a bit at the end.

Day 1 I will focus on and make my goals:

Eating when hungry - stop and think before I eat anything, consider what it will feel like once I've eaten it, will it make me feel healthy or blurgg, what do I absolutely feel like eating, check to see if the duck is quacking anywhere, check whether I am really hungry, if all checks out then eat slowly extracting every little bit of enjoyment out of it! And pat myself on the back for having done all that as It feels a bit scarey tackling this tool certainly out of my comfort zone!

Drink 2 litres of water through the day - I will try using hot water as well as cold

Go for a 30 min walk when I get up early

Fill in my journal and tool tracker

Right that's my bag packed for tonight, its early night for me - that way the morning will come sooner, I've really recaptured the excitment and know that that's because I've taken the time to plan properly and been through the videos carefully.
So in the morning me and Pete are off to the magical tropical island of Weightloss, the capital is Health and there's a wonderful sandy beach called "Vitality" where the sea sparkles aquamarine blue and the locals all have a great time running around and being active, they're all high on exercise endorphins! There's a great little bistro called "Fresh and Natural" on the beach and it's full of fabulous healthy food and drinks and we're going to have some great meals together, having taken care over choosing items from the vast menu. No wonder I can't wait for tomorrow - mustn't forget to put the camera in!!

Bit of a grrremlin going on for me this pm - have just typed up two entries in my journal and lost both! Seem to lose them as my cursor wanders down onto the "page" below the journal bit (if you know what I mean) and then an old entry pops up and the new one is lost. Can you help, can they be restored to my journal - have just planned and set goals!! Thanks Jan

The last days have been a rolloer coaster up and down, Yesterday decided to become a fish and weight myself and have lost only another pound plus a couple of 1/2 inches which was disappointing but made me feel like I had lost some of the original impetus and wanted to pick it up again which was re-inforced when I tried on a pair of size 20 "fitted" trousers which I bought as 2 sizes too small before I started the programme! Consequently had a fantastic day yesterday as far as eating goes - was called to the bedside of a dear friend of ours who is gravely ill and even amongst all the sadness and fantastic spread put on by the home she lived in I managed to resist all but a healthy selection and portion. Sat up through the night with the nurse and our friend and she quietly and peacefully slipped away, she was an amazing special lady who has spread so much love and joy in her lifetime I felt so humbled and priviledged to have been able to keep that last vigil with her . I wish I could say my story ends there but on the way home a pack of 6 "Gold" bars on the back seat somehow opened themselves and jumped down my throat, felt disgusted with myself and like I was letting Rosie down and then to top it all when I woke up just now hubbie had left some hot cross buns in the kitchen and I finished the last 3 with a good dollop of butter on each, I felt like I was right back in square one a weak willed rubbish - knew while I was doing it that it was not the right thing to do and kept on thinking about ow good those trousers had felt but kept on anyway! The habit of a lifetime's drowning emotions in food is not yet over. But the new habit has got a good hold because I didn't feel like throwing the towel in which I would have done before and just eaten my way through the rest of the kitchen, I threw the empty packetaway - looked at the other pack of 6 laying there and told the duck to go to *&^%&*, drew a line and here I am, about to go in the shower, take 1/2 an hour to plan the week ahead before taking a long walk into town and getting what I need for the next week's healthy eating. Have decided that on the second time round I will concentrate on the eating when hungry tool which is something I battle with as I seem to be hungry all the time feel like I've lost some of the ideas around visualising and choosing. I am really looking forward to going through it all again and this time absorbing even more and making even more of the tools and techniques into my natural pattern of behaviour, feel as if I have only just scratched the surface in so many ways and also feel like I have come a million miles in just doing so! Thanks Pete for a fantastic programme and for your generosity in giving me (us) the time I need to absorb and re-absorb until it sinks and becomes second nature and for the journal site where there's just so much extra support.

Hi everyone, have been able to snatch nearly enough time to check out the video and catch a quick glimpse at blogs but have not blogged myself or replied to yours. Have had a great few days getting at least 30min walking in and considerabley more on two days as well as a couple of bike rides so I'm pleased with activity level - not where I want it to be ultimately but coming on.
Food front has been good (until tonight when we had four Chinese students round who cooked us dinner - delicious but very oily so had the minimum that politeness would allow, don't think it will have been too damaging and I was very aware of what I was eating) then just now had a treacle flapjack and a piece of gingerbread! Annoyed that I didn't stop and think and choose healthy alternative - don't know why I ate it as I wasn't hungry or anything else that I can pinpoint - just some sort of deepseated reflex, came back in from dropping the students off and went straight out to the tin and just ate it, possibly tired and on autopilot - must fire him and get another pilot! Now have quite a good list of displacement activities - need to be consiously using them.
Am off work now till beginning of April - hooray - need to be sure I keep focused during this time as todays message is particularly relevant - social pressures, I must be careful to set up outcomes for my days or I will lose it.
So what I plan to achieve tomorrow is:
Water on rising and 2l throughout the day
Walk 30 min uphill
Bfast fruit
Make appointment with gym for next week
meeting at office
A little retail therapy - will look at juicers and a pair of jeans 1 size down (20)
Lunch - salad
Plan out the week's menus
Shop with a list and full tummy!
Dinner - don't know yet but something healthy and planned
Anyway take care all and hope all your choices are healthy ones! - mine too!!!

Setting outcomes seems to have changed my whole approach - weird how the day before I made a list and it worked and here we are on Day 17 "Setting Outcomes". And after last night's embarrassing blog tomorrow is "Social Pressures" - I should have waited!
Got up and did only teeth and face and out the door this am - what a lovely morning, birds singing and the dew still on the ground! Off to shower and feed goats then work - should be a good active day - Tuesday activities are pretty "active". Going straight to visit a friend then on to choir tonight and have a 13 hour day tomorrow so may well not check in but will be "doing the do"! Good luck to everyone today, take care of yourselves and Go For It!!!!

Am over the moon this evening with my day - it's been a stressful one even though I was not working. As planned got up early and went straight out this am for a walk - will certainly do that again, once I come online time just disappears . also need to feed the goats and do the chores on work days. Walked 35 mins but a hard walk up the hill - a real pull up then very steep down - knee held out well. Back home and the whole activity plan disappeared, went to town with H for market day and take some keys back, persuaded him to put bikes in and go for a ride later. Had a bacon bap in town - fat removed. Had lunch at country park, baked pot + beans and salad, rode 5miles with clicking knee so left it at that. At the birthday party had 4 cheese and pineapple squares, didn't even fancy any of the other food or pastries and sweets even though I was fairly hungry, didn't want to undo my good day's excercise, felt really good to be able to say "No thanks" Now I must admit I have a major problem with Hubbie's attitude, he just acted like I was being awkward by refusing food, so I am learning to stand up for myself and what I know will make me healthy, he hates anything vaguely healthy and thinks its a marketing con trick - his farming parents lived on lard and stodge so its good enough for him! Mostly I end up making different things for him but have decided to a large extent this has to stop, he doesn't work and doesn't help around the house so he can jolly well eat what I prepare or prepare his own - blimey that sounds really mean I'm not usually mean and i hate conflict! Am I over reacting? Previously when I have lost weight I have gained it all back partly because I just get tired of doing two lots of food and give in and eat fried and stodgy stuff - I don't lay all the blame there as I choose the portion size and when I was in that phase I would just stuff myself with whatever was the most fatty or sugary thing I could lay my hands on - try and numb the pain. Sorry everyone but there its in the open and now perhaps I can get it worked out, his attitude makes me so miserable at times, I don't want to be confrontational but I do want to do what is best for me (and I belive for him too!)
Anyway all that aside I have really had a great day food and tool-wise and am off to bed now feeling good about myself.
Tomorrow's plan:
Up and walk at 6.30
Fruit and cereal breakkers
Work activities -
am gardening,
Lunch: Ham salad butty and fruit
pm coutry park to walk, rwalk round town
after work visit sick friend
Make a salad for tea
Choir