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Hello
I am finding the stress of lots of things hard to deal with at the moment, what is up with me - I am not really really in a bad place.
Earthmother x

I have had a mindful lunch sat out in the sunshine in our lovely garden.
I ate a smoked salmon and rocket and spinach seeded wrap, with a little mayo. I ate it slowly and had a lovely glass of water from my new glass and finished with a clementine.
The kittens were playing outside too, the younger one Lily is on heat - and she is cvrying for a boy cat to come to her - no sign of any though poor lass!
Sophie is now 10months old and a real bruiser in size - her dad is enormous apparently! She has such a lovely sweet face with a lovely colour snout :)
She is just a big cat and a very special cat to my son - they have a special bond as she, as a baby kitten, helped him to get over his anxiety disorder.
So, I definitely had a moment in the garden, now down to more work. Got to go and buy ingredients for a tasty stew!
Bye
Earthmother xxx

The sunshine does make a difference!
I do not know why I have lost the plot at the moment.
I am disappointed not to be able to make the show and party after all, I don't think anyway.
The dancing is keeping me going at the moment and another newbie - Cecelia and I may do an extra private class to polish up our techniques, that would be great.
Eating lots of veg, but not enough fruit quite.
Need to drink more water and eat more slowly.
I need and want a lither body to do my dancing that is my goal now, so I must reinstae my money jar to work positively towards that as an outcome.
I have been taking my blood pressure at home and it is not as high as at the doctors, so I intend to do the relaxation and transformation mps before I leave for the drs next tuesday for the next blood pressure check and see it that makes it lower. I am sure I get white coat syndrome blood pressure.
Welll that is enough to be going on with, so off I go!
Earthmother xxx

My new pic is of my sons and daughter who married in Kefalonia.
On the very left is Matt, he is 30 this year, then Sam who is 15 this year, Olivia (Livie) who is 25 this year and finally, but not least, Jake who is 13 this year.
Matt works for my husbands business and does body building - I liked him normal size, but the main thing is he is happy with himself. Sam is the sensitive artistic one, but gaining more confidence now and quite happy with his braces, which is great. Jake is the youngest and laid back one who is also very bright and cheeky - except when they are on computer games!
So you can see I am a very proud mother to all my six children.
Earthmother xxx

I can truly say I adore doing ballet, the feeling I experience when I do it is so lovely - even if I am not that experienced, it is just like I imagined it would be:-D

Earthmother xxxx

I am down but not out.
I am trying to make an appointment with the doctor as I am trying to come off some medication, but I am getting weird headaches.
I am still doing my jazz and ballet - which did I tell you I love, but my use of tools is fairly messed up at the moment.
Today I am going to print each one out and randomly choose them each day and see if that helps.
A lot going on at the moment as for everyone I am sure.
There is a big seismic shift in our lives as the family has almost grown up and the day is now unrecognisable to that which I have know fro nearly 32 years.
I should use it as a new time for me and I find that difficult and at the moment I am swaying around in the wind really.
The economic downturn is not great either -= I could go on, but this blog is just to say something out loud - too much time, lots to do, unmotivated even though I know the consequences.

The ducks have rather taken me over at the moment, and I am struggling to slay them, I want my positive mindset back pleas.

Earthmother

What are the details for tonight's session ?
Earthmother

Hi everyone
I did my jazz dancing last night and we are just beginning a routine to one of moulin rouge songs! I didn't feel too supple though.
We had to empty out the lodge as we are letting it out from easter until the middle of September. It was a big and tiring job to do that and drive back home and then start sorting it out here at home.
I would like to say that I have had a marvellouse week.....
I did love relaxing but as the days wore on i wobbled a little more.
We bought easter eggs - early I know and gradually demolished them - they were so cheap!
I had a lovely freshly baked scone.
Well basically I let sweet and carby things back in my life. I did have walks on the beach too and lots of fresh freezing air :D

The relaxation we had was so worth it!

I also know on a couple of days I did not drink enough either.
I also know how I felt being dehydrated and eating sugary carbs - headache, lack of sleep from the chocolate and dozy.

I was glad to do my dancing last night, but I was even tempted not to go - I was so tired from all that I have mentioned and taking boys on a bus ride so they can get used to buses and use them on their own - time for independence for them! and we picked up the kittens from the cattery too in the morning. But of course the effort to make myself go paid off I enjoyed it!
Looking at hotels for London - my husband cannot make it (he will be at exhibition at NEC) so I am looking at alternative ideas for the weekend. Perhaps I can bring Cami with the boys instead!
I need to refocus again and decide on daily outcomes AND WRITE THEM DOWN TO MAKE ME FOCUS
Earthmother x

Well my daughter has gone back to uni after deciding to carry on with her course.

It always seems the same when things seem to be sorted and running smoothly something suddenly comes along and knocks you ooff course again a little.

I did eat too many carbs yesterday - almost as an experiment - and I certainly felt less alert and more fed up after eating them. They tasted well pretty tasteless in fact. I still like high quality bread but I eat very little of it these days and have been making more at home for the boys.
Back to eating my fruit for breakfast which I much prefer as a way to start my day.
I had my ballet again tonight - there were only three of us tonight. actually that was really good because we learnt the technique of each movement and that will prove extremely helpful to us now. I feel like I have really done some leg and bum and tummy work tonight. I love it. It feels like I have been dancing forever now I have been doing the two classes each week. The focus of my week has changed for the better I think. It is a lovely way to get fit without thinking about it as the end result. I don't think I will end up at Sadlers Wells just yet lol!
Off to see my husband who is actually at home tonight.
Earthmother x

Hello on this sunny Wednesday
I am afraid there were family issues last night - trying to find out what our daughter actually wants to do with her future (Cami) She is not enjoying her uni experience that much, although she has made some good friends. She has decided to plough on as there are not too many more weeks in reality before this year is finished then she has the opportunity to take her third year straight away or have work [placement for a year then complete her final year.

I on the otherhand am loving my dancing so much and love moving about on the dance floor with the moves we are learning having some problems with the pirouettes - but I will persevere!

I am changing shape slowly but not losing weight at the moment which is a little disconcerting. I have stopped filling in my food diary, but I do know that I have had food in pastry too much this week. They way I eat now is so much improved without the puddings and cakes etc for which I feel no temptation, that is definitely a big step forward for me.

I eat lots of fruit and vegetables and seeds in between meals if I become hungry. I still miss drinking enough water, must do that right now today and concentrate on that tool.

Can it just be the stress then? I know it makes you feels messed up inside, so it cannot do your digestion any good at all.

I will choose some form of exercise to do today and do it. My husband is away again tonight so there is more flexibility in the day and evening.

So I did use my exercise equipment and resistance exercises too on Sunday evening.I did my jazz dancing on Monday evening and yesterday and during monday there was also a lot of walking involved in the day.
It might be nice to take a walk with Cami today before she leaves to go back to Bristol - a brisk one - we will see!

Pete I hope you enjoy your spanish experience!
Sorry I had to miss last night's session everyone!

Earthmother xxx

Hi Guys
I used my exercise bike, elliptical trainer and rower last night listening to my i-phone ipod and the time soon sped by. I followed this by some resistance exercises and various tummy exercises.
I did a short burst of studying and made sure I spent some time with my husband, who I may add was asleep for part of the time bacause as soon as he eats sugary carbs becomes compelled to sleep. He had a little at my daughter's house. He avoids yeast and sugary stuff most of the time and he generally follows an anti-candida diet!
So combined with ensuring the business is propelled forward and needing to sleep, I cannot wait on him to be 'available' and I have begun to do stuff that is important to me and although he is soooo important to me I must live my life in the present, whether he is 'present' or not, cos we only have NOW. (Eckhart Tolle is interesting to listen to, but tiring concentrating doing that) Lots of times in the past I have lived (on one level) waiting and making myself totally available for when he is around, as he is less able to make the time given his role as our only breadwinner. But this entails sort of living your life in the negative, and insular - not a good place to be. I am not that person any more and it is easier now our children are older.
As the logo on a t shirt I have says:
Just do it!
And I am in a mindful way of course because he does deserve all the support from me that he can have right now, but I can give it to him from a better place, instead of me being resentful and him being spoilt. If you all understand what I mean!!!!

I hope you all understand what I am trying to say here:0)

Earthmother xxx

On Friday I did hit my exercise wall and felt like I was 'dying' so tired!!!!, so yesterday took things a lot easier and whilst I studied a little we did relax.

Sometime today I will use my gym equipment here at home and also do some resistance exercse before the end of the day.
We are visiting my middle daughter - Olivia and her husband today for lunch and the afternoon - this will be good fun for us all being sociable.
Trying to persuade my 14 year old that he needs to come with us - not remain at home enticed by the computer - we are seriously worried about their addictionto sitting playing or using their computers - SO THEY ARE BOTH COMING though Sam is not agreeing with my assessment at the moment!
Tennagers - who'd have 'em!
I felt in dire need of sugary carb yesterday and no amount of displacement activity got rid of the feeling, so I did have a pancake with a little ice cream and syrup. But there it is done and I am not crying over it.
Today I aim to have an outcome where I limit my eating to absolutely stopping when I feel full. I will be eating healthy food, she always cooks healthy food. But I am not sure if she has made a dessert, hmmm
Anyway time to get ready and enforce that both sons are coming to see their sister not just the youngest!
I hope the rest of you enjoy your Sunday!

Earthmother xxx

Hi
Well energetic pursuits seem to breed more energy - I feel exhilarated after my day!
Healthy food, five minute workout, workout with my ironing lol, studying my psychology and I am about to listen to the latest podcast about vitamins and my ballet class.
It was fun, lovely to remember the steps - some of the time- and giggle at messing up with other newbies! They are all a great crowd!
I think maybe I am a bit low on water again, but I did take water to the ballet class and did take sips from it during the class.
I couldn't stop gabbering on to my husband, who is away again tonight, about how good I feel. Lovely to feel the workout my arms and legs in particular are getting, but it is an all body workout really.

I love it, love it, love it!!!! Did I tell you I love it!

Earthmother xxx

Hi
As well as what I described last night, I am also doing other stuff; I am doing an ASET Level 3 Psychology Course (distance) which I can study at my own pace. I followed OU with an Early Years Course and the pace was very frenetic.
I hope it is obvious that I love children, especially young children and they are always a big part of my life.
At home I also use our exercise equipment and follow various fitness dvds.
I think I have turned my life around in spite of the recession difficulties and I am beginning to have the inner strength to be the 'strong' one in these trying times and not to resort to comfort eating. It is the opposite now - I feel deprived if I do not manage to eat healthy food!
I have my garden to totally complete, and some soft furnishings for our house to make so lots of things to look forward too! I am impressing myself with my energy here :D

Earthmother xxx