Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

I have just booked my tickets for the Vitality show and cant believe its only just over a week away... I am getting really excited about seeing everyone !!
Last time a crowd of us bloggers met up in London for one of Petes Live events, we all gathered together for a chat and a coffee before going to the venue and so I have found out there is a Starbucks very close (2mins) from Earls Court Station and just 5 mins from the exhibition Centre. The address is actually 186 Earls Court Road, and it would be great to meet up with any early birds say between 9-10am. Is anyone up for that ??? Or is it too early for those who are travelling in that day ?
I will be at the exhibition centre all morning so again hoping to meet some of you lovely bloggers there, and then we are taking my grandaughter to the Palladium to see Sister Act in the afternoon, sadly I wont be attending the in the evening as under 21s are not allowed in due to liscencing laws, and yes I could arrange for my grandaughter to stay with a freind who lives at the Elephant and Castle which is where we are staying, but to be honest I dont really fancy going out in London on my own at night, so on this occassion I will have to pass on the party, but I cant wait to see Pete and all you amazing Pettetes during the day ... its going to be great !!!!
So Tickets are booked, and printed out, and bag is half packed and I CANT WAIT !!!!!!!!
Love and hugs to you all
Sue xxx

Today it's 30 years since my mum died, she was just 50 years of age, she had liver failure through alcohol abuse, at the time when i was 28 I thought she was quite 'old', now I am 58 I realise it was absolutely no age at all, and what a very sad and tragic waste of life. Mum was an addict from as far back as I could remember. I would come home from junior school and find her 'asleep' on the settee, my little sister wouldnt realise why, but i just got on and done our dinner and waited for mum to come round and say she was so sorry for having a 'headache'.... she loved us dearly, just wasnt strong enough to say 'NO', dad was a drinker and they had a funny lifestyle which involved bringing other grownups back to the house from the drinking mans clubs they used to go to .... she didnt have much chance really, she was an addict, and in them days it was a great stigma attached to women and drink, so it was all very hush hush and swept under the carpet. I used to think if she had loved us enough she would have stopped !!! HOW WRONG WAS THAT ??? Now i know that HABITS AND LOW SELF ESTEEM play such a major part in all of that, I mean look how much I have risked my life and health through my own destructive behaviour, and i dont believe i could ever love my family more than i do !!!!! Mum loved us, of that I am now sure, but she didnt know she was worth anybetter than the life she had.... and she didnt know how to stop doing what she was doing , there was little help and such a great lack of understanding.
I have been thinking about her today a lot, because today i am FEELING EMOTIONS, I am not eating or drinking to suffocate the feelings, I feel so sad that she wasted a life when she had little grandchldren who she would of loved to see grow up, and my sister and I have missed having a mum in our lives for so many years.
So although there is a lot of sadness in my thoughts there is also immense grattitude that I am so well now, I am the best I have been really through my whole life, yes i am older, heavier in a lot more pain than my younger years, but my mind, my mental state is the healthiest its ever been.... my mum would be so very proud of how i have turned things around not once but twice, once with the alcohol addiction and again now with the food!!!!
She used to hug me and say 'You are a good girl Susan' I reckon she is looking down on me tonight beaming and saying just that !!!!
Sorry for such a deep blogg, I needed to get that out tonight
A big hugs for mums everywhere.
Love and hugs Sue xxx

Its my daughters 34th birthday today, it just seems a few years ago the day she came into the world screaming hungry as it was almost lunch time, the doctor had to attend to me, and because she was so starving she sucked a little blood blister on her tiny fist..... that pattern continued through life as she has always loved her food and has paid the price literally, from a serious weight problem and also having 2 cardiac arrests at 26 through starving to lose weight!!! NOW thankgod, through my changing attitude she has lost nearly 5 stone through smaller portions and healthier food, she has gained the confidence to return to education as she missed out on her last important years at school as that was when my drinking was at its worse and i wasnt the responsible parent i should have been, she is doing brilliantly and hoping to get a place at uni next year. She is a brilliant mum to my 2 eldest grandchildren, and last night she got her glad rags on and went out for the evening with college friends..... I cannot remember the last night she had the confidence to go out on the town with friends so i am delighted and so proud of her. petecohen.tv HAS HAD SUCH A SPIN OFF TO MY WHOLE FAMILY !!!! She told me she had so many compliments about how glamerous she looked, she is a stunning girl, with the most amazing thick very long blonde hair that she curls around her flawless skin, and do you know what ? Today i felt she actually started to believe it !!! What music to my ears is that ????
They have gone to the cinema and taken my youngest grandaughte too, who is my sons girl, to see 'Alice in wonderland', then we are all going to my son for a lovely Roast dinner at 5pm.... I am so looking forward to that, as it all tastes so much better when it is lovingly cooked for you. My son is the only person who can beat me on the roast potatoes, his are crispier and more fluffy i the middle than mine are, but will they bother me NO because my goal to get under 20 stone is so so so strong, NO POTATOE, BIRTHDAY CAKE OR ANYTHING ANYONE COULD PUT RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME would ever get in my way !!!!!!! oh my god I LOVE this programme, Pete AND ALL OF YOU BLOGGERS FOR GETTING ME TO THIS POINT IN MY LIFE!!!!!
So have a brilliant Sunday everyone, I hope you are spending it with people you love.
34 years ago today a very special little girl came into the world, who hasnt had the best start in life, in fact she had a rotten time through many parts of childhood, she has had rotten luck in her health and not great in her personal life BUT she is a fighter like me, she is not just my daughter but my best friend who has always been right by my side as my best freind too, I feel very very blessed.
Count your blessings too, and we dont do it often enough do we?
A happy and proud Sue xxxxx

Weigh day again, I didnt actually expect to lose this week as after feeling light headed and dizzy last weekend i have upped my food intake and thought at best I would stay the same, but i am delighted that i have still lost 1lb. I am still not eating bread, potatoes, rice, pasta etc, but i have increased my fruit and protein, and its worked as the light headedness has gone!!!
Before petecohen.tv, if i had lost 1lb in a week, it would have immediately sent me into the 'why on earth am i bothering? might as well have a bacon roll, or fish and chips, or even a bar of chocolate!!!, but now my thought process has completely changed and i think ' another 1lb of fat gone, thats SIX AND A HALF STONE SINCE MY DAY 1 how brilliant is that ??? I am able to look at the big picture, and see the future and the end of my journey, when i step on them scales and it says i have lost 15 stone since day 1.......that is now a reality not just a pipe dream that seemed completely unreal, i am almost HALF WAY TO MY GOAL OF BEING A SIZE 14-16.....i was a size 36 and bursting the seems to a loose and comfortable size 26...... i went to shop today for an outfit to wear to London and how great was it to walk around and actually chose something i liked rather than the only thing i could find in a 20 mile radius that would remotely fit me !!!!! LIFE IS PRETTY GOOD FOR ME AND I LOVE AND FULLY APPRECIATE EVERY SECOND OF IT!!!!
Have a brilliant weekend all you amazing Petettes, and i hope you are ticking off your mini goals, and setting achievable new ones, its been a real help to me to tackle it in small achievable goals, and as Pete says, step by step . day be day we are on this amazing journey to a healthier fitter and slimmer us !!!
A very happy and contented Sue xxxxx

We have got another weekend of celebrations coming up, its my lovely daughters 34th birthday on Sunday, and one of my oldest and best friends birthdays on Saturday, he will be 58 the same as me, we met when we were 12 at school, and he has been a very close friend all those years, he never married so 'adopted' my family as his own, and my luck with relationships has been diabolical so David has always been there, like the brother I never had. So 2 days of celebrating, My son is cooking a meal for everyone on Sunday at his cosy little cottage, we will have to eat in 2 sittings as the rooms are really olde wolde and so tiny, but it will be lovely just all being together again and me not having to shop and cook. then next weekend is Mothers day , so we have yet to arrange what to do for that day, to be honest i really begrudge what the restaurants charge on that day, so I have always refused to let my children book a meal that will be double or three times the price of any other Sunday in the year!!! then the weekend after we will be in London to see Pete and all you lovely bloggers who are comming...... loads happening and i am not in the slightest anxious or concerned about my eating, as I am so controlled now, and so intune with what my body wants and needs situations that used to really worry me or even what i dreaded if i was on a 'diet', just dosnt have any impact on my life at all any more.......HOW GREAT IS THAT?
tonight was our regular Thursday family meal night, i done cottage pie and loads of veg, i made one the regular way, and another that was topped with sweet potatoe, and had lots more veg in the mince, and it was GORGEOUS!!!! So much so that they were asking for seconds of the sweet potatoe one, not fighting over the crispy bits on the regular one !!!!! I made a lowfat rasberry mouse or fresh fruit flan and icecream for desert, and i had my favourite desert of a lovely sweet orange.
So all is well and looking forward to my weekly weigh in tommorow, hope you are all looking forward to a good weekend with those you love. Wasnt it lovely having some sunshine today, yeah hey spring is almost here, the daffs and crocuses are comming up and I have never been so pleased to see the back of any winter.
Love and hugs to one and all
We can and will succeed, Keep Going and keep blogging,
Sue xxxx

Pete asked us last night about things we have experienced in life, that changed us forever, like joyous moments, birth of children or grandchildren or achieving something amazing, and also terrible traumas, and for me personally I have had many of those wonderful times as well as awful times, my son survived a fatal car crash when 2 best friends were killed when he was 18, my daughter survived 2 cardiac arrests, the first one was when she dropped at my feet and it was only because I put her into the recovery position that she survived and her heart started beating again, and out of the blue I was diagnosed with stage 3 kidney cancer, I survived a 50-50 odds of surgery, and I am on my 5th year of surviving 5 years after surgery. So why why why did I still carry on abusing myself with food to be nearly 28stone, and knowing first hand how fragile life is.? That is a hard one to work out, and the only thing I can come up with is habits and complete lack of self worth.
The overeating started for me as a young child, being the worrier in a dysfunctional family, where I became 'responsible' for making sure there was food on the table as mum was often unconscious through alcohol abuse, and where I had to care for my younger sister as often there was 'swinging' going on in a very small house with very thin walls, and I would sit with her making sure she was safe until the last 'visitor' had gone, my only 'nice' feelings was when I was eating, and it was usually filler foods as little money for food ( although plenty of money for alcohol!), toast, crackers, cheese, bread and dripping, more toast… so those habits started from about the age of 10 or 11….. and continued through the next 45 odd years, any uncomfortable feeling was made slightly better by feeding myself the carbs and high fat food… and I remember the night my mum died at 50, her liver gave out through years of alcohol saturation, I sat with her holding her hand, for everything that had happened she was my mum and i was heartbroken, i was sobbing all the way home after she had gone, only stopping to buy a chinese and eat it like a crazed peron, crying into the food but trying so hard to feel some comfort and ease from the pain in my heart and mind, of course that wasnt in the bottom of a dish of food, no more than it was in the bottom of a glass !!
I blamed myself for everything, if i had done better at school they would have loved me more, if i wasnt so fat they would be like my friends parents and
would love me more and want to cook my dinner for me, not the other way round!!!, it was hard to concentrate at school, sitting in a classroom knowing some of the other pupils dads had been visiting our house till early hours!!! Did they know? Maybe it wasn't just a secret in our house, maybe the whole school knew!!! So what would I do, what I always done… get that grill on and eat through another pile of hot buttery toast until I couldn't cram another slice in!!!! Why couldn't I stop this happening, my sister was so precious to me and I was allowing this to go on, my fault my fault my fault. It took until I went to see a brilliant therapist in 2007 for my own alcohol addiction that I accepted it wasn't my fault it was THEIR FAULT, and we had no choice but to live it too!!!
And living through all the traumas with my own family dramas, that scared and guilty child always surfaced, it was my fault for letting my son have so much freedom that he was in that crash, it was my fault my daughter has Long QT syndrome, her episode was triggered by no potassium in her body from extreme dieting, I had showed her how to starve and binge, it must be my fault, it was my fault I had kidney cancer, I drank for England, I am obese and obese people get serious cancer don't they ???? So more guilt meant more stodge, always the filler foods., and by now everything else as money was no object so I could afford good food too!!! BUT THE TURNING POINT FOR ME WAS GOING TO SEE Pete IN LONDON… HE TOLD ME I DESERVE A PLACE IN THIS WORLD… and not just to serve others. I still didn't get it for a very long time, that I owe it to myself to take care of ME, I am not responsible for everything that happens in the world, but I am responsible for taking care of myself, and that was the one thing I had become expert at NOT doing.
I am sorry this has dragged on and on, my mind has been working overtime, trying to come up with why I continued to abuse myself, and I am now convinced I had to like myself first, and that has taken being a part of this amazing online family and feeling all the love and respect Pete and all you amazing bloggers have shown me, and now i know i deserve to happy and well, its taken a lifetime to get where i am today, and i just thankyou so much for being a major part in my complete recovery. I feel i am on my last lap, my mind is well and as 'normal' as its ever going to be, now its the weight loss and that is getting sorted out week by week and day by day as i am walking, arm in arm with everyone of you on this amazing programme to being slimmer, fitter and healtier.
Please accept YOU are worth it and truly deserve all the good things in life
love and hugs
Sue xxx

Have just got back from Centre Parcs, and have had a really fantastic time, the weather was awful, rained non stop and mud up to our eyeballs, but it didnt matter, was just brilliant spending fun time with all the family, loads of fun and laughter, my grandson is so like my son, a total wind up merchant and practical joker, but everyone took it in good spirit and just lovely family mahem for the whole weekend. I decided to take the food with us as its so expensive to buy food in there, or eat in the restaurants, once you are unpacked on arriving at the villa, you have to move your car to the car park, and they obviously know its not practical for people to pop in and out of the park to buy food or meals ,
least half hour walk just to get your car to leave and go outside to buy shopping or eat out, so everyone uses the facilities there and they are really really overpriced. So we ate in our villas, everyone helping with preparation and clearing up, and just ate out one night on the Saturday. I managed beautifully, taking loads of salad and fruit and chicken, gammon, tuna, etc, I am even now able to listen to my body and know I had to increase my portions sizes as to start with I felt a bit light headed with all the extra walking. Everyone was so pleased and surprised at how well I walked, in fact its been the best stay I have ever had regarding the walking, there were a few times when I had to use the special 'taxi' they lay on for disabled visitors to pick them up and take them from A to B as you are not allowed your own car once in there. But this time I walked constantly, I was able to keep up, which is a major thing that used to upset me a lot, as I had to stop so often to get my breath I would always feel I was a nuisance to everyone, this time I was keeping up with no difficulty whatsoever.
What made me really happy this time was watching my grandson so confident and happy in the pool complex, he took a friend with him for the weekend, and I loved watching him walking around the swimming pool without crossing his arms over his body as he had since he was a very chubby 6 or 7 year old!! This time he was cycling all over the park with his friend, and was walking around that pool with tum in, chest out strutting his stuff with the best of them !!!!!
So not am I just delighted with myself and my grandson, my daughter is also over 4 stone lighter now, so everything was much easier for her too…. We are starting to enjoy things that slimmer and fitter people just take for granted, there isn't a day I don't say a prayer to say thanks I found Pete when I did, and since petecohen.tv has become a way of life for me, everyone's life has become so much richer for it too!!!
I will catch up with all the blogs this evening, lots of love to you all

Just a quick update as I am packing the car to head off to Centre Parcs as soon as the kids are home from school!! As usual taking everything but the kitchen sink, have cooked a lovely piece of gammon, and taking loads of salads and fruits so I dont get caught out!!! Its pouring with rain, and i had my hair done thismorning ready to go away , but i now resemble a drowned rat so that was a pointless exercise, , but it made me feel good for a little while so thats what matters!
I had my weekly weigh in and lost another 2lb, so that takes me to 5sto7lb since turning it around and deciding to be EXCEPTIONAL on 28th Sept, and its 6st 6lb since my Day 1 on the programme, and i am 28lb off on Shoanas 50x50 challenge, so well on course for that goal....... yeah i am a happy bunny, if not a slightly bedraggled one right now !!!!
So the car is packed with all we need as a family, and all I need as a Petette.... I flatly refuse to let a weekend away take me back in anyway, my resolve is as strong as ever and theres no cake, chocolate, chips, bread ever going to taste better than that !!!!
Have a brilliant weekend all you fabulous bloggers, and I look forward to catching up with you all on my return on Monday

love and hugs
a very happy Sue here in rainy Norfolk.
xxxxxx

Yesterday was a great day, done lots of housework, and actually cleaned my car and hoovered it out myself, cost me a fraction of taking it to the usual place that does it all for me, and I was thinking about all the exercise i was getting!! Then ouch....... while streatching over to hoover the floor in the back of the car I pulled something in my hip area and oooooh my word its giving me some pain, keep putting a hot water bottle on it, but it kept me awake a lot in the night. That will teach me again not to over do thing, i feel 30 again in my mind and attitude, and i really forget the body isnt :)
We are off to Centre Parcs tomorrow, and was so looking forward to not having to use my stick and doing lots of walking, I really hope it wears off a bit today and tomorrow!! The whole family love Centre Parcs, my grandson is taking a girl who is a good friend since they were babies, she lost her nan and grandad who were also very good friends of mine quite recently, so we thought the break would do her good, and also they can go off and do stuff together. we have booked 2 villas next to each other so will be great fun, theres 10 of us going, i have already got my food to take so I know exactly what i am going to eat, then wont get caught off guard!!! No excuses necessary then !!!!
I am looking forward to my weekly weigh in tomorrow, how great is that feeling to look forward to getting on the scales..... been years since i have been that confident... YEAH
I hope you are all having a great week, and not 'overdoing' it and causing yourself damage like me !!!

Love and hugs to all
Sue xxxx

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The shocking truth about processed foods
By KitchenDaily Staff

Posted on Feb 17th 2010

Filed under: Food for thoughtComments 6Email | More We all think we know how bad processed foods are for us, but do we really know what does, or in some cases doesn't, go into making them? We reveal some shocking facts about processed and junk foods.

There's no strawberry in strawberry-flavouring
The artificial flavours you see in so many foods can often contain every chemical known to man, and this is particularly true of strawberry flavouring. Strawberry milkshakes or other mass-produced strawberry flavour desserts, contain an artificial flavouring made of more than 50 different chemicals, including amyl acetate and solvent. And not so much as a sniff of strawberry.

Chips are full of sugar
What many of us don't realise is that while most fast food french fries are drenched in fat and salt, they are also dripping in sugar. Restaurants like McDonald's dip their fries in sugar to give them that nice golden brown colour when they're fried. It also helps to develop the crispiness that only junk food chips have.

Ice cream contains seaweed
Little do most of us know, but many mass-produced ice creams have seaweed in them. A seaweed extract called carrageenan is used as a stabilizer to prevent the ice cream from getting over-frozen, or from turning into a runny mush.

Worcestershire sauce is made of anchovies
Worcestershire sauce is one of our favourite condiments in Britain, but not many people know that the main ingredient used to make it is anchovies. Yep, as in fish.
The whole of the little fish, bones and guts included, is soaked in vinegar until it dissolves and is then mixed with molasses, garlic and chillies. Tell that to your vegetarian friends.

Many foods contain bugs
In a restaurant, finding an insect in your food is cause for a refund. In the mass-produced food industry, it's sometimes a necessity. Any pink foods, such as pink grapefruit juice and strawberry yoghurt, include a food colouring called cochineal extract that gets its red colour from an insect called Dactylopius coccus Costa, which feeds on red cactus berries.
The insects are dried and ground up into powder, which is then inserted into many pink, red and purple foods.

Some cheese doesn't contain any cheese
Unless you're buying proper lumps of cheddar or mozzarella, many 'cheese products' in the supermarket, namely cheese strings or processed cheese slices, hardly contain any cheese at all.
This kind of cheese product is composed of less than 51 percent cheese and more than half the product is ingredients such as emulsifiers, carrageenan (the seaweed-extract found in ice cream) and flavourings like citric acid (which gives it the cheese-style tanginess).


Almost everything contains beef
It may surprise you to know that almost all fast food products contain some kind of beef extract, even the chicken, fish and salads. The simple reason for this is that beef makes things taste better, apparently.
Just a few surprising areas where you'll find beef in extract or essence form include McDonald's Chicken McNuggets and KFC's Grilled Chicken Sandwich. It also used to be in McDonald's french fries.

Peanut butter has maggots in it
Scary as it sounds, some products are allowed by law to contain a certain amount of insects and mites. One product, canned mushrooms, is allowed to have up to 19 maggots per 100 grams of mushrooms. That same portion can acceptably contain up to 74 mites. Lots of other mass-produced foods, such as our beloved peanut butter and hot dogs, are also allowed by law to include bugs.

Today I have done my bit at my doctors surgery, I talk to year 3 medical students, and have done this every 6 months or so since the cancer journey I went on. My GP knows i am always very happy to do this as if there is anything i can do to help anyone when they are diagnosed with the same then its certainly worth my time. I tell 'my story' from moment of diagnosis to now, to 3 sets of 2 students, at 20 min intervals, so what is an hour of my time if one person can be helped. Usually I come away so drained and emotional reliving it all in such graphic detail really, over and over, but since doing petecohen.tv these 'interviews' have become easier, because i am in such a better place myself. I remember the very first time i done it, was about a year after it all happened, and i came straight out of there and was so anxious and het up i went to the bakers, and the chippy, and the sweetie shop, i think that binge lasted about 3 days on that occassion, i was like a person posessed.... oh my word i now sweat at the memory, how far have i come!!! and do you know what was the best bit about today???? When i said, 'I was given 50% chance of surviving surgery, and 50% chance of living 5 years even after sucessful surgery...... and THIS IS MY 5TH YEAR'...........YEAH HAAAAAAAAAAAAA ITS 5 YEARS ON 2ND JULY ...... AM I SO HAPPY TO SAY THAT !!!!!!
I was calm on my way to the surgery, I was calm during the interviews, ( where as before I was bubbling up inside) and I was calm when I returned to my car and drove home!!! HOW FAR HAVE I COME, THANKYOU PETE!!!!!
I am looking forward to seeing you online ladys tonight!!!
Love and hugs to all , its a brilliant day for me here in dreary Norfolk,
Sue xxxxx

I have just had the most amazing week, and i am sad to get back to routine tomorrow and back to the old routine, but then you have to have normal life to enjoy the special times so much !!!
I was thinking this year my birthday and my grandsons birthday just seemed so much more special than previous years.. yet they always fall in half term, we always celebrate so nothing different this year except where I am in my head... thats the difference this year and wow what a difference it has made!!!!
Also the focus for me has been much more about enjoying being with my loved ones rather than obsessing about the next feast i am going to force feed everyone, so I am more relaxed, in turn they are all more relaxed and life is just so much sweeter all round!!
My cousin who is also my godaughter came to stay this weekend with her husband and they walked in and said 'Oh my word, you look so much smaller'.... how great was that considering we were together on Boxing day so its not been so long... she bought me a lovely top in a size 26-28, and said' you may need to change that for a smaller size, heres the reciept if you need to ' YES YES YES, MUSIC TO MY EARS OR WHAT !!!!!!?
Last night all my family came round too, we had board games and lovely buffet, lots of healthy choices, and i was relaxed and calm and enjoyed the merriment..... then i cooked them breakfast today, no problem for me, and cooked a roast dinner tonight with all the trimmings, i had lean pork and half a plate of veg..... they had pinnaple mouse i made, I had an orange for desert. My cousin was asking lots of questions about the programme so i showed her online and who knows we may have another blogger soon !!!She has done Rosemarry Conley, slimming world and the atkins, and recently her gp put her on Reductal, but they have been recalled now and not available anymore because of dangerous side effects.... I think seeing how well i look, how well i have done has seriously changed her mind about 'diets'.. think we have a convert!!!!
So although i am sad such a great week is over, I am so very grateful that all these amazing times are now about me being with special people, not me charging around the shops like a lunatic, spending hours and hours in the kitchen, and being so shattered that i cant even enjoy myself ......I LOVE this programme!!!!
I hope you all had such a great weekend too
love and hugs
Sue xxx

Do you realise its only 4 weeks this weekend to going to London to see Pete and meet up with all the bloggers !!! That is going to fly by I am certain of that.
I am trying to think of the best way to try to see everyone, as i have found out that the evening venue for Petes Party wont allow under 21s in and i am comming to london with my 12 year old grandaughter. I am stayng at my friends just across Tower Bridge and I do know i can leave my grandaugter there while i attend the party,, but i am quite nervous about going anywhere in London on my own in the evening and also I dont feel quite right about leaving my girl when its a special weekend for us to spend quality time together, so I will have to see if there is another way around this situation. I have never heard of a place with function rooms that will not allow guests to bring children if they are attending a private function, dont quite know what to do about this really.... there are so many of you i want to see and meet and chat to, that i thought maybe we could meet up somewhere different, but that isnt fair to Pete who has gone to all the trouble of laying on this party to celebrate 2 years of petecohen.tv, and I SO WANT TO BE THERE !!!!!!!!
Any suggestions so gratefully recieved please.
who is comming ??? I am so excited about it .
Got a great weekend ahead, more celebrations, got my cousin and her hubby comming tomorrow to stay overnight, and i am doing a buffet and we are having a lovely board games evening... going to be great !!!!! Going to do several salad bowls, a low fat chicken curry and a sweet and sour chicken dish, veggie chilli and rice and pasta bowls, going to make a mushroom rissoto and meatballs in tomatoe sauce, with wraps and garlic bread, and hot baked rolls and its going to be fantastic!!! Cant wait !! loads of merriment and the kids will love it !!!

I hope you are all going to have a great weekend too
love and hugs
Sue xxxx

A very quick blogg as dashing out again, birthday boy wants to get ear pierced oh my goodness !!!
weigh day and ..... drum roll .....ANOTHER 5LB OFF......Running totals are 5st 5lb off since Sept 28th and Pete telling us if we are going to do this we might as well be the best we can at it, and be EXCEPTIONAL.... and I am 26lb off on the 50x50 challenge for Shoanas 50th birthday in May... and i am 6st 4lb off from my day 1 on the programme......
I was a little anxious stepping on the scales as i have had 2 meals out this week and i was a bit concerned of any butter or fat etc added to the cooking , so how amazing is that........ never ever have i been for 2 celbratery meals and actually lost weight !!!! But i done as Pete said and enjoyed every moment but still being the very BEST, because i am EXCITED about this process and every day wonderful things are happening......
I will write a proper blogg later, this is just because i hope someone who is maybe wobbling a bit can read this and get this excitement too, its actually quite easy as its such a snowball effect....... I LOVE this programme AND I AM WANT THIS SUCCESS MORE THAN ANYTHING I HAVE EVER DONE BEFORE...... HOW MUCH DO YOU WANT IT ?????
Love to all , have a great Friday , i am !!!!
A hypo elated ecstatic and maybe annoying Sue xxxxx

I didn't sleep too well last night, probably thinking about 16 years ago on the day my grandson was born, as its his 16th birthday today. My daughter was 17 when she had him, little more than a child herself, so obviously the mother role was continued by me when he came into the world. I was just 42 so still young enough to have been 'mum' and people out were never sure if I was a mature mum or a young nan, but I loved being whoever they thought I was, as from the moment he was born he lit up my world, and has continued to do so every day for the last 16 years.
I went to see him this morning with his pressies, card and money, I bought him a selection of clothes he chose from the Top Man website, as now he is slim and lean and cool thanks to me going on and on about the programme, he loves shopping in Top Shop and wearing the clothes with great style and poise !!! I am so grateful he is slim and trendy now, as his life was always based on sitting on computer games and grazing non stop, now he is in demand and always out and about, its so heart warming to see him now !!
We went for a lovely meal this evening, all 9 of us, Italian was his choice and I was a bit concerned as I know its pizza and pasta and sauces. But I took my time in deciding what to have and I chose king prawns skewers on a bed of lettuce, red onion and diced peppers as a starter, and for the main I had sirloin steak, with rocket, mushrooms and a side salad. I ate slowly and savoured every last mouthful, I passed on the fried potatoes and bread that came with the steak, and I passed on desert and finished with a lovely coffee. I had mineral water only to drink. I absolutely enjoyed every last mouthful, and I loved every moment of spending quality time with my family. I watched them all around the table, laughing and joking and my heart just swelled with pride at how close we are, and how everyone was so happy to be celebrating this amazing young mans birthday.
So another perfect day and I am so content inside right now, not just because I made great food and drink choices but because I feel all warm, glowing and fuzzy from feeling so blessed with the people who all mean the world to me..
I was quite happy to have photos taken tonight, normally I would do anything to stay out of the camera shot, I felt comfortable in my outfit and even the seats that weren't that big or comfortable were so much easier for me to sit on, now there is so much less of me. Those seats would have been quite an ordeal a few months ago !!
So not only am I celebrating my main mans birthday, I am celebrating our family that is shrinking , there was actually 4 stone less of birthday boy, 4 and half stone less of my daughter and 6 stone less of me…. Total 14 and half stone less of us around that table….. AND IS IT ANY WONDER I AM SO GLOWING WITH PRIDE AND HAPPINESS.
I feel like the luckiest lady in the world right now, and thankyou all, every last one of you bloggers for all your support and help towards making this happen.
and the best thing is this is just the beginning ..........
love and hugs to everyone
Sue xxxx