Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

Hi all
A big thank you for the messages that I received after my 'cry for help' the other day. You are a very wise bunch. It is so true that of all the things that I've tried, this is the one that I keep coming back to and I know what I need is a change for life so miracle crash diets are not the answer.
I know I need to stop at the moment of the binge starting. Any useful tips. Today after a really good few days I went to buy a loaf and found myself eating a packet of cakes in the car 5 minutes later. How sad. I know I need to take control and that it is only me that can do it for myself but it is as if all sensible thinking goes out the window and all I care about is filling my face!
Any suggestions?

Oh what a life of ups and downs. Eating well, being in control, losing weight (for a full 12 days since starting the programme again!) then a week of lost control and bingeing. Am soooooooooo fed up with this. I really feel like I'm at my wits end. Have even just been on the 'Lighter Life' website thinking about doing that but I know that is not the answer. I am so fully aware that this has to be a solution for life. That I need to be healthy and find a healthy, balanced way of eating for life. I just don't seem to be able to kick these binge/diet/cycles. Heeeeeeeeeelp!!!!!!

Hi all
Just back from a day shopping. They really should provide counselling outside changing rooms! It was the first time I realised that that stone and a half I'd gained over the last few months is actually noticeable!
However. Focus on the positive:
Day 8 and no bingeing
Weekend away without eating a load of crap
Am eating really slowly, have cut out the sugar and have reduced my portion sizes
I am really focussing on the fact that there is no 'tomorrow' to start again if I go and blow it. I need to keep getting it right every day or my life will just be forever consumed woth issues of fat and food
Feeling confident and despite not loving my reflection. Have got some lovely new things so that I at least feel good for the moment

Hi all
Day 4 and I have 2 really good days but one day when I binged. As Pete says we must learn from our mistakes so at least I have taken from this the fact that:
1. Eating crap makes me feel crap. Perhaps it feels good for the first 10 seconds but after that nothing positive comes from eat
2. If I have 1 'bad' thing, it doesn't have to lead to a full pig out. Just because this is what I have always done, I don't have to repeat this behaviur forever
3. I can't 'start again tomorrow' every day as tomorrow will never come
Anyway away for a weekend with my husband without the kids. Am going to enjoy it without it just being about a 'blow out'
Wish me luck!
Have a nice weekend

Hi all
I am starting the programme again after being in the widerness for a good few months. During that time I have been dieting/bingeing (but mainly bingeing) and gradually getting fatter and less energetic.
I go to bed every night resolving to 'be good' the next day but every day I end up eating a load of rubbish (my actual meals are very healthy but I have developed a going to the shop and buying chocolate/cakes and eating the packet habit) and thinking ' I might as well completely blow it and I will start tomorrow. Unfortunately tomorrow has never come.
Until today!! I really feel that the only time in the last few years that I have felt that I have been at a really good place with my eating and weight was when I first did the programme. For those 21 days my life was a dream with all worries of food and overeating gone. I felt amazing. So, here I am again trying to regain that control.
As I did then I think i need to completely avoid sugar as I really feel I am addicted. In fact all my behaviours around buying and eating sweet things are actually identical to a drug addicts behaviour round drugs (lying, hiding things, secretive behaviour etc.). So will focus on that, eating slowly and eating when hungry and see how I get on. I really do need to crack this!

I was just looking at Heather's blog where she talked about all that she'd binged on. I so admire her honesty and responding to her has really made me see a few home truths. It's funny how you can give all the perfect advice to others and see exactly what they are doing wrong but you can't just follow your own advice!!
I've been in a less than good place of late. I'm going on holiday in 3 weeks and am having the annual 'must be on a really strict diet to lose half a stone before I go - of course only to put it back on and more whilst I'm there.' I know that this is so wrong as it is just getting me stressed and putting pressure on me. I need to just stick to the programme and the rest will sort itself out. As I just said to Heather, the only times in my whole life when I have felt in control of my eating and not in a binge/diet cycle is when I have stuck to the goal 100% I am really determined to do this. In particular back to no sugar - it is my salvation I know!!!!
p.s Kathryn sorry has been ages. How's it going?

Hi all
Hope you are all doing ok. HAve had a bit of a wobbly weekend eating wise but excellent on the exercise front. Ran 8 miles on Saturday which is the furthest I've ever gone so am well chuffed and have been really getting loads out of my gym sessions.
The latest pod cast is really motivational if you haven't already listened to it. It has encouraged me as Pete says that your body may be getting rid of fat from the inside which is the most dangerous (ie from round your organs) before you start losing it from the outside (ie your spare tyre(s)). This has helped me to stop obsessing about how fat my stomach looks as I think I must be doing some good to my body if I am exercising and eating well.
Am going to continue with the no sugar thins and also focus on eating when hungry. I have certainly been managing that a lot more this week!
Take care you guys x

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Am having a bad couple of days and whilst not completely on a 'bender' I am wobbling a fair bit. I know exactly why. It is because I have been getting down about the fact that I am not losing any weight and it is making me think 'why bother'. Iknow that this is stupid and I know that I should be feeling good about the fact that I am kicking the sugar habit and that I am exercising really well. I have really altered my workout from doing about 4 intensive cardio sessions a week, mainly running to doing at least 2 body pump/weights sessions. I know that I am getting a fitter, stronger body as I am lifting heavier weights and I know that this is probably why I am not seeing much change on the scales but I just can't seem to stop beating myself up about it!!!
In answer to Pete's questions my 18 month old has just started sleeping through till 6 ish after waking for the past 9 months at least once and I do tend to be stressed having an 18 month and a 3 year old to deal with. So yes, quite tired and quite stressed which I know doesn't help.
It's funny, I've used the phrase I know a lot!! I know where I'm going wrong which is at least something and will get back on track. I have a holiday coming up in 4 weeks and a wedding in the summer and I am putting pressure on myself to lose weight for these things whcih only leads to me wanting to pig out .Think I need to chill!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Hopw you are enjoying the lovely sunshine. Back to work tomorrow after 3 weeks off. Gutted!!!
Feel like I've not blogged properly for ages as have been off and need to get back into it again. Have been having a bit of a downer today as despite my 3 weeks off the sugar and chocolate and therefore not bingeing at all, the scales just ain't moving. I know that I shouldn't be going by weight loss, especially as I have been doing lots of resistance work so will be gaining muscle, bit I don't particularly feel like I;m even looking or feeling any slimmer. I know I feel soooooo much better off the chocolate and not living the life of a 'junkie' but in terms of weight loss half of me thinks I might as well be eating like I used to as I'm not getting any slimmer!
I know as I'm writing this that that is totally not the right thing to do, I guess I must still be eating too much so really need to focus on the other tools of eating slowly and when hungry and stopping when I'm full. Am starting day 21 again tomorrow!!

Well am at day 21 without chocolate, cakes and all that crap. Except had a piece of my Sister's birthday cake today. Am actually not that bothered as didn't really feel that enthralled by it, haven't started a massive binge as I've 'failed'. After the last 21 days I know for absolute certain that it is only without sugar that I can lead a normal life where I am not acting like a junkie searching for my next fix and obsessing about eating, weight etc. etc.
So, 21 days done 99 to go!!!!
My aim for the next 21 days is to really focus on eating when hungry and eating slowly too. I have been doing lots of exercise and resistance work at the gym so am hoping that I will start to see some big benefits soon!

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Hope you are all having a nice Easter weekend and are managing not to give in to all that temptation.
2 interesting facts about chocolate that might help to put you off:
1. British cholcolate is such poor quality (full of fat and sugar and not much chocolate) that in the rest of Europe it is not allowed to be labeled as chocolate, but rather confectionary
2. Dairy Milk was created during rationing and was chocolate with a load of cheap sugar, milk, fat added to it to make the expensive chocolate go further
Interesting! Perhaps it might help to think about that when tempted with 'chocolate' this Easter
I am now on day 16 with no sugar or chocolate and it is still making me feel 100% better and stopped me bingeing. I am really pleased as I have been away at freinds and out for a couple of meals and have not been at all bothered by not eating puddings and cakes. Even all the easter eggs havein't tempted me.
I need to really start focussing on eating when hungry and eating slowly now as I think I'm still probably eating too much to be losing much weight. Am doing a lot of resistance work at the gym so so am trying to go by how my clothes feel and not how heavy I am.
Good luck over Easter

Hi all. Off to stay with friends for a few days. Going to David Lloyd's en route - it is a free family day there today, you don't need to be members if any of you have one nearby.
Meal last night was successful - stuck to the strawberries although someone else had bought chocolate cake and no after dinner mints. Success! I know going to stay with freinds will be full of temptation, but I know I can do it!
I am a bit sad as I have just found out that my little 1 and a half year old boy has a nut allergy. I feel like this is another 'food' issue to think about and I feel really sorry for him. Anoghter good reason though to stick to healthy, home prepared food and not eat cakes etc. when we go out. Hope you all have a nice weekend x

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Hope you guys are all doing ok
Day 9 off sugar and still on the wagon. Came close to eating some cake when out with my friends. Afternoon tea and cake, the nicest cakes in the world and averyone else tucking in - rather tempting but managed all the same
Am feeling a bit fed up that I am not feeling any thinner, despite not bingeing and exercising a lot. I think I need to start and reincorporate another tool or 2 as although I'm not eating sugar, I think I might be eating too much other stuff, otherwise I'd be losing weight! So I think I'm going to add the eating only when hungry tool
Am out for a meal with friends tonight and I have to take pudding. Am being really good and taking strawberries. Don't think I'll be very popular though as they'll be expecting cheesecake or something equally bad for you!
I expect to be rich tomorrow having, of course backed a winner on the Grand National. WIll buy you all a drink (of water of course) if I do!!!!!
Have a good weekend x

Hi all,
lovely sunny day again. Spring has sprung! Day 5 off the sugar and just feel like a new person! Not stressed, not guilty, not feeling fat, not failing. It isamazing. I have spent the last few months really feeling like my get up and go had got up and gone! Now I feel like I have a spring in my step again. I even felt inspired to have a spring clean this morning! Whilst cleaning I found a 500g bag of sweets that were left over from decorating a cake a couple of months ago. I had completely forgotten they were there. It is so amazing that last week, I would have definately opened them and eaten the whole lot, yet I didn't have the slightest urge to do so today. One thing that I just can't believe and never will understand is that when I'm on the sugar and chocolate bender I will go to any extremes to get food yet when I am 'on the wagon' I do not care in the slightest if I don't eat it ,even if others are having puddings etc. Weird. Gues I'm jsut an all or nothing girl!
Went to Body Pump last night. Am really trying to make a shift from being a cardio girl to getting in some resistance training. Was absolutely fab and by far the most entertaining way of getting some weights into your workout! Am really concentrating on the fact that if you want your body to change you do have to 'resculpt it'
Have a nice day
p.s lovely comments from Sue about that awful man. Love the Pete's army analogy!

Hope you have all enjoyed the lovely sunshine today. So great to be out and about with the kids. It makes you feel so positive doesn't it?
Day 3 without sugar and feeling 100% better and 100% positive that I am back in control of my life. It's amazing how difficult it is to actually maintain a chocolate/cake etc addiciton and it feels so good not to have to lie about what I've been eating and sneak bad food at any available opportunity. If nothing else, I will save a load of money!
Went out for a meal last night and didn't even open the dessert menu, had no chocolate mints and no pudding after family meal today. The thing that amazes me is that it so doesn't bother me and I don't feel that I'm missing out (so weird when previously I would be prepared to steal and ,ashamed as I am to admit it even eat food out of the bin, in order to get my 'fix'). Can't tell you how great it feels to not have that in my life anymore!
The one thing that I find quite annoying is having people comment on the fact that I am not eating puddings etc and feeling that I am having to justify myself. Anyone got any good ways of dealing with this?
Hope you have a good week x