Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

Not blogged for a while as I've been struggling a bit.
Feel better today, I took my puppy out three times, one short walk and two long walks. He just loved the wind, and was chasing leaves and having fun, made me laugh watching him.
The weather has really been getting me down. I know as soon as it gets a little better I will be fine, but for now its hard. I don't understand why it has such an affect on me.
I want to run, I want to feel the sun on my limbs, I want to feel happy...not grumpy and permenantly tired.
Hoping to be happier soon.
Love BikerB x

Recently I felt my weight had increased, so yesterday I weighed myself and ....
I was right, I'd put on 3lb.
Not the end of the world I know, but I'm not happy about it.
I could blame it on the fact that I've not been able to exercise for the last two months,
I could blame it on the weather, which has really been getting me down.
Or I could blame it on the friends who bought me a huge box of chocolates after my operation...
Or I can accept responsibility for my actions myself.

I think I got a bit complacent with the program. It's given me a wake up call.
I just dont want to lose what I've worked so hard to achieve.

Well I didn't get to ride my bike as it was snowing, but I did manage to get a few jobs done which have been driving me mad for weeks.
Then my elder daughter and I went out for lunch, we had a wonderful time, just sat & chatted.
My foot is much better, I've hardly limped at all today. Hubby home tomorrow so I will be forced to rest!
Feel really tired tonight, keep waking up at 5am and worrying about all sorts of daft things.
Think I will head for bed.
Goodnigh all.
Love BikerB x

I think If I dont ride my bike soon, I'll go insane!!!!
Maybe tomorrow I will just go and sit on it for a while. I passed it earlier and had to stroke it.

I have found this week hard, not food wise, my pattern is pretty well set now. I'm just so sick of being stuck on this sofa!!! Over 3 weeks now, and tho the hospital has said I can start easing back into normal life, my family wont let me!!! I feel very frustrated.
My kids have been in Scotland for a week and my husband has looked after me, and he's been brill but he wont let me move!
Still he's back to work tomorrow, so I hope to have a little freedom.
Good to have the kids home, I missed them so much. Also now they can chase the puppy around, he's being a pickle!!!
I think one of the worse things is knowing I will probably have to have another operation on my foot later in the year, and have to go thru this all again.
Still I have to remember in the long run it will be worth it.
I just need to get back to normal for a while first!
Love BikerB x

I was reading an article in a woman's mag about depression, at the end there was a few tips on how to help yourself.
One of the tips was: Tell the negative voice in your head to "Shut up". Even saying this out loud will help. Remember feelings are not facts and that voice has no authority over the truth.
The evil duck surfaces again!!!

PP asked me to let you all know, she's not blogging cos her computer has gone kerput! It's in the menders again.
She hopes to be back on line soon, she's doing o.k. and sends her love to all.

Woke up today and was worried about my foot, just didn't feel right. I phoned the hospital and got a call back this afternoon, they wanted me to go over. when I went on Friday, the nurse wasn't sure if they should dress it again or not. (The surgeon hadn't left instructions!). Anyhow it should've be strapped up again. i just hope it hasn't set me back. Felt really low today.
Love Bikerb x

We have a new baby!!!
Yeah it's quick but we just couldn't stand the emptiness. a house just isn't a home without a dog!
We got him today and he is related to our Tim. We've called him T.J (Tim Junior)
No, he wont ever replace our Tim, , but we are ready to love a new puppy.
I feel it's a testament to what a fantastic dog Tim was, our dog before Tim, after she went we couldn't face getting another one for 5 years! She was a very difficult dog. Took us a while to recover.
Looking forward to having lots of fun with T.J.
Love BikerB x

We lost our little dog tonight.
He was 14 years old, and tho at times he's been a pain in the butt, he's been a great little fella.
Fur took him out this morning and said he wasn't right, really slow.
Been out of sorts all day. Then tonight he started crying, just wouldn't settle. He keep shaking, just knew it wasn't good.
Hubby & Fur took him to vets, they couldn't find anything wrong but did blood tests. The tests showed he had calcium leaking into his bloodstream. He had so many lumps and bumps.
So hard to make the decision.
Lots of tears here.
xxx

I'm so impressed with my husband! Tho I feel like saying to him 'Who are you, and what have you done with my hubby?'
We've been married close to 35 years and he's doing things like cooking dinners and going shopping alone, he's never ever done that before!!!
I wake up in the morning and everyone else is up, running around doing their various jobs. I get my breakfast in bed, and they prepare my lunch before they leave. They are very organised. I'm not sure I want to get better too quickly and take it all back on!
Only joking, altho I'm trying to keep busy,I'm bored with sitting around and when Pete mentioned learning to ride a bike in todays video (day 8) I had withdrawal pangs. I miss my bike! I can at least see it from my bed...but I'd love to ride it.
Must be patient...not one of my better qualities.
Had plenty of time to read blogs and make comments tho.
I sorted out lots of photo's on my computer, deleted a ton of old emails, even replied to someone who emailed me last July!!! opps.
Had a couple of friends pop in today, I hadn't told anyone about my op, just my family. Word is getting around now, I have had cards & pressies which is very nice.
Cant wait til friday, I go back to the hospital. Mind you it's not the hospital bit I'm looking forward to, PP is taking me and we are going out to lunch first. Something to look forward to.
Hope everyone had a good day.
Love BikerB x

Why does just sitting around make you feel so tired? I've done nothing all day and I feel exhausted! Guess it could be the anaesthetic.
Felt a bit emotional today too, been looking at old photo's and feeling nostalgic.
On the up side my foot feels much better today. Family have all been working today so had a bit more freedom, I've been sensible but have managed to do a few things that were driving me crazy.
My husband has finally relented and let me walk around the house without crutches, I don't need them.
I am finding this period of my life a trial!!!
Love BikerB x

I'm finding it really difficult just sitting here watching my family do everything! (For those that dont know me, I had an operation on my foot yesterday)
My husband yells at me everytime I stand up...but I do have to go to the loo sometimes!
Today I have done a bit of knitting, maybe I will finish this jumper whilst I'm laid up. I've also done some cross stitch, not had time to do that in years!
I enjoyed watching Ronnie O'Sullivan in the semi final this afternoon, glad Pete posted that podcast this week, it reawakened my interest in snooker. Now I'm looking forward to watching the final tomorrow.
I keep reading everyone's blogs about exercising and feel bit peeved I'm stuck here...still I must be patient and sensible (how boring!)
At least I dont get chance to pick...I have to eat what I'm given. Blondebombshell is cooking mexican tonight, it smells fantastic!
Fur made chicken & vegetable soup at lunchtime, that was delicious too. Tomorrow Pointo is cooking roast chicken, I'm not sure how all my kids got to be such good cooks, they didn't get it from me that's for sure, they are much more adventurous than I am.
Must mention hubby cooked a perfect boiled egg for my breakfast!
Hope everyone having a good day.
Love BikerB x

Just after writing my last blog I went down ill, so I'm very jealous of all you guys going out playing in the snow!
I loved listening to Pete's snowy podcasts, at least I got to see more than my back garden!
The only day I got out was Friday, I had a hospital appointment, a preassessment for the operation I'm having next week. Was lovely to see the snow, looked very beautiful on all the fields.
So now I'm back in, cant really take chances as I dont want to mess up my operation, and I'm still not feeling great anyway.
After my op I've got 2 weeks completely off my feet, with a 6-8 week recovery period. Think I will be tearing my hair out by then. I'm not very good at sitting still, so I'm really not at all sure how I'm going to cope with this.
I'm really missing my running. My mum has offered to lend me her scooter, so I may just take her up on that (when the weather warms up a bit!) At least I would be able to accompany PP whilst she runs, have really missed our little chats.
Mum also has an electric wheelchair, would love to be able to get that going but think it needs a new battery. I could have lots of fun on that!!!
The kids have all been great and cooking whilst I've been ill, so at least we dont starve. Good job they are all on the program too.
Love BikerB x

This year has flown by! Looking back the highlight has to be, my girls meeting Pete at the vitality show. It set us all on the right path, and we all eat much more healthily now and are many stones lighter.
I love being slim and have mantained my weight for many months now (tho there may have been a small increase over the last few days!)
I've discovered a love for running, which not only stuns me but everyone that knows me.
Lots of positives.
Now I'm looking forward to spring!
Love BikerB x