Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

Very busy day today. Lots of walking, with a heavy bag. Knees killing me, and back so bad I can hardly stand.

Ate well and small portions. Work picking up. Lots to do.

Day 7 – Pete says to pick up momentum and keep going. Well I do Keep Going – but am not getting anywhere. Not having food wobbles and not going back to old ways.

Done all the questions about what I will get out of it – but don't find these motivational at all.

Looking at different ways to deal with the things that are not currently working. Haven't come up with any ideas yet.

My office desk is a lot clearer. I said I was smug.
Accounts now in at Company House before the deadline. See I said that I was smug.
Corperation tax paid before the deadline. See I said that I was smug.
I have just finished our ironing and my Mum's ironing. See I am smugger.
I have been making some great arrangements for South Africa visit in June. Now I am getting really smug.
Oh and by the way; I just thought that I would mention; just in case there is the slightest interest - my weight is on the way down again. Yer I am v. smug with that one.
Keep on with those great choices; Enjoy and have Fun

11-03-10 Nothing significant today, ate slowly and drank water, but the mind is definitely changing and so hopefully is the body shape. I find it difficult to download the relaxation and transformation tape and the food recipes is too big seemingly for my PC. Tried to send it to work but it was blocked and never came through.

This week, Pete asked us to blog about what we want our legacy to be.

I've really struggled with that one, actually. For me, a legacy is how other people remember you, and quite different to what I'd like to achieve in my life. So I'm going to split it out and answer each part separately.

1) What do I want my legacy to be?
I want to leave the world a happier place than I found it.

2) What do I want to achieve?
I want to thoroughly enjoy my life!
I want to have the courage to continue to make changes when things in my life aren't right.
Having struggled with my eating and weight for most of my life, I am determined that I now know how to how to live healthier, and have the strength to do so!

The training's going really well. So far this week, I've done two 4 mile power-walks and a half-hour session on the Wii Fit. I get to rest tomorrow and then it's a 6 mile walk on Saturday. My walking speed is just a shade under 4mph at the moment, so really pretty good - still plenty of room for improvement.

Still slightly disheartening that I'm not seeing any difference on the scales... I know they're misleading, and the important things are the way I feel (wonderful! strong! bouncy!), andthe way my clothes fit (better every day). But it still would be nice to see that reflected in the scales... I'm still over 14 stone.

But I know where I'm going, and how to get there...

Well its day 2 and so far so good. Had a smoothie for breakfast with strawberries, blueberries and choc soya milk yummie, then went for a long swim in the sea, so long I got my back very pink!!! not a good look. For lunch had grilled veg with some low fat cheese sauce and for tea planning chicken and salad. Going to my flexibility class this evening which is wonderful and makes me feel young a supple again (i wish!) I need this programme soooo badly having got so much from the support it gave through Pete and my fellow petettes bloggs previously, I know it will make a difference this time.
I am still stuggling with the same old demons, poor self image and self esteem, still feel as if everyone sees me as a fat person rather than as me, but I am slowly realsing that I do have something to offer my friends and family and I am a valuable member of society, some days tho its tough. I am going to crack it if it takes a while longer

Hi guys my membership ran out today but i cant rejoin as they are having problems with the switch site. Had a good day, in quite alot of discomfort, went to GP he says i have a small prolapse. also menopause seems to be taking hold, not pleasant !! Lol, must get toned up and fitter think i will rejoin the gym. Cooked a lovely lamb, leek and lentil casserole for tea, just waitng for it to warm up.Hope this blogg will post, hope you all had a good day, lots of love faith xx

I am going to sort out my eating habits once and for all. I will be wearing my skinny jeans at the end of this 21 day programme and then I will be able to go an buy my self some new clothes for my birthday.

I've been thinking about something Pete said on the online course last night. I admitted to not really knowing what I want. I would "like" to be a stone lighter and feel even better than I do BUT I don't know that I REALLY "want" it enough.

I've been the same weight since last August after initially losing 2 stone on the programme. I just seem to have settled.

most of the time I eat sensibly using all the tools but sometimes I don't. this coupled with recent stresses has probably kept my weight stable.

The problem is I FEEL good - think my tummy's too big, but other than that I'm MUCH happier than I've ever been, in control of my eating, know I'll NEVER overeat like I used to again, in touch with my emotions and understand what my body needs.

Also I LOVE exercise! I love the buzz I get from this and know I'll never give it up. It isn't possible for me to do anymore - I'm at the gym Monday-Friday and do a dance class every sunday PLUS I teach on my feet and do choreography for up to 9 hours a week!!! Not bad for someone with a back problem eh?? In fact to be honest I think I may have been doing a little too much recently, especially after that recent podcast with Jason about stressing your body.

So where do I go from here? I just Keep Going I think. I was wondering if I should leave the programme and take a break - but take a break from what? My life? I LOVE blogging, keeping up with you lot and learning the lastest stuff that Pete has for us. i just don't feel driven enough to cut down further on my eating, carbs, etc etc BUT I "wish" I could - I guess it's down to being scared of the "dieting" mentality and I REALLY don't want to go there again.

Having read the thing that I wrote about self sabotage I DO think I've uncovered what's been stopping me and I DO think I've dealt with it. So what am I going to do? I'm going to relax!! I KNOW I'm not scared of losing weight anymore but I'm not going to drive myself into the floor either!

I'm just going to keep going, keep "doing the do" and see what happens. Maybe constantly overthinking it is my problem!?

So today I'm off to the gym this morning for resistance. I have a back appointment at lunchtime and then hubs and I are going out for a carvery lunch - going to have turkey!

Tonight we're having steak baguettes with onions and mushroom followed by slices of melon.

That's all for now folks... M xx

Very busy day yesterday doing things that I enjoy - so that was nice!

Had a facial first things in the morning, got home and smelled spring in the air so decided to mow lawns. Mowed ours and Mum's and she came out to thank me. Hubs was in the garden with me and I told her about Gran. She passed on her condolences and said all the right things to HUBS!!! This is the first time they've spoken since before christmas. I was hugely relieved and massively grateful to him for this. I know how much it took as I know how much she's hurt him. We had a short conversation of the sort that I'm hoping will continue, it was polite, and just enough to maintain contact and for us all to feel that there's a line of communication open again. I have no intention of pursuing our previous relationship which involved long talks in her house and listening to all her bigotry and judgements - those days are over. But I'm REALLY relieved that hubs and her have spoken, especially as the Spring is here as I don't want to have to worry about stepping out into our own garden!

Had a lovely lunch! One slice of seeded bread toasted and smeared with red onion and garlic chutney topped with grated cheese and grilled, served with a deliciously sweet sliced apple - GORGEOUS!

Decided to scrap the gym as I was STILL aching from Tuesday's activities but we did go on to clean the house. Most satisfying - I love doing this as hubs does the hoovering whilst I clean and dust and my eldest comes home and mops all the floors (he gets paid for this!). Also washed bedding and so everything felt spick and span by 4pm. Inbetween I managed to make a couple of chicken, ham and mushroom pies and prep the veg for tea.

Fell out with my new doormat so dashed out across the street to buy a new one and came back with a new throw cushion for my bed - it all looks LOVELY now!

Hub's aunt rang to say Gran's funeral is next Wednesday so we're getting mentally prepared for that and have decided not to take the boys.

Dived in the bath, my lovely Cuz came for tea and then did the online course with Pete.

I love days like this - highly productive and enjoyable with a real sense of achievement at the end of it WITHOUT feeling stressed or exhausted!

Re-started programme at Day 1 today - just watched video. Definately need to keep watching and listening and using the resources until all the tools become part of my daily life.

Just been out for a walk - sun almost breaking through the clouds. Feeling very positive about the future - being slimmer, fitter and healthier and also having a complete re- think of my life in general. Since starting the programme 3 weeks ago I have taken positive steps to sort out my dull, tedious, isolating job. I'm going to use the skills that I learnt when I was a mature student at art college and put 100% (instead of my usual 10%, give up and go and eat cake) into earning some money from painting and gradually reduce my hours at work.

For the first time in 10 years I actually believe I can do this - instead of looking at other peoples work and thinking that I could never do what they have done. Why can't I? The only thing that is stopping me is me.

Thought I had started this programme to lose weight and improve my health - didn't expect it to change my whole attitude to everything else! Just shows you the effects of positive thinking.

OK - I'll stop now - all this postive thinking is exhausting - going to lie down in a dark room now - only joking! I've got an exhibition to help put together in an hours time. Finished my painting at 11.30 last night - still to frame it!

Hope everyone has a good day.

I'm really looking forward to meeting up with everyone on Saturday. It will be such a pleasure. I am feeling really happy today and will be being active, eating slowly and drinking water. I am really enjoying my new job and I suppose being happy it's easy to put things into perspective and be relaxed. I know I won't be like this all the time though but am enjoying the moment. Life continues to be very busy and I this is one of the few times I have tto reflect. I was reminded by Pete about the importance of breathing. it seems such an obvious thing but I am concious that when stressed by breathing is shallow and measured breathing does help. Looking forward to today and wish the best for everyone! Sue would love to meet up and will be at starbucks, need to make sure exactly where!

Hi guys its Faith, went to W W tonight have offically put on one stone and half a pound since last june !! My jeans and trousers are so tight, and its no wonder. Hey ho i am determined to get back on track. Did not console myself with chocolate tonight even though i felt like it. Have had a good cry, dont feel too well, but life is life and no more excuses. I do feel that not blogging has set me back even further, and keeping in touch with you all. I must embrace this programme and really perservere ! I CAN I WILL SUCEED, not going to get the larger jeans again. Night everyone take care, so glad to be here. Love Faith xx

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I took my son to the bouldering wall on Saturday night where he had 2 hours of coaching with another 2 kids – he loved it. I had a rather relaxed session with my friend – including a long tea break, we both felt that we don't do anything slowly normally so it was really nice to pace ourselves. I didn't push myself too much really as I knew I needed to hold something back for the race on Sunday morning.
It was a lovely sunny day on the far side of Huddersfield, lovely to see the snow on the peaks still , it was freezing -4 when I set off but very bright. I have caught the sun ! ( and you aren't having it back). A tough race with dirty great hills in it – as the ground was frozen I would have been better off in my road shoes but hey – I did it and I got a reasonable time considering the little training I have done over the last 4 months. I really enjoyed being up at and at it in the sunshine – great!! I ate a huge amount afterwards in various meals –and then took my daughter swimming – my son demurred – both of them were ice skating this morning and he recognised that he was tired.
I've not been in great shape – I felt wiped out on Monday – I didn't hurt anywhere ( except my forearms but that's the climbing for you) . In a stinky mood until I came home on Tuesday night and unwrapped my new multisport helmet, got a new high score on Sean White road trip ( god that is hard work on the legs) and felt sooo much better after a run on Tuesday night. I don't know if it's down to a really hard run or if it's PMT. Probably both. And a combination of other stuff
I'm very bored at work – One of the things that was annoying me was how reactive it all is. I can't wait to start my new role. I have nothing in my diary for tomorrow and no task too and some people are annoyed that I have the audacity to leave. The way I see it - my work has to tick some boxes apart from money as there are so many other cool things I could be doing otherwise it's frustrating to have boring stuff or nothing to do..
It's not the best time for me financially – The MOT was done today – I bought two new tyres a couple of weeks ago, I also need to tax and insure the bike. Oh and I bought a week for both kids at Kingscamp to help keep them out of trouble at Easter. I think I'll have to eat lentils until June.
I'm very proud of my son – he's changed so much in the last two years and especially the last year. He really wants to get out there and grab things with both hands. Two years ago he couldn't swim and said to me “don't waste your money mum I'll never do it” He was awarded the 8th badge in Leeds City council swimming badge scheme yesterday. A total change around from then. I asked him if he wanted to keep on going after he attained the 10th and he said” I just want to keep doing it and getting bette”. He wants me to book him into bouldering more, he loves it . He watched the winter Olympics and loved the snowboarding and ski cross and wants to give it a go!! I really can't imagine him even expressing an interest in any thing back then. He still thinks his mum is completely mad though as but I'm a fairly happy mad mum so I don't care about that. I need to embarrass him in some shape or form as I'll fail my mum objectives otherwise.

Hi everyone,
Hope your all doing ok day 14 today. getting more used to eating slowly and waiting to eat until hungry is really helping.
I can walk a good half hour up hill now and I must say quite enjoy it.